Supposed to be studying my astro now...
But really totally no mood.

I think I just give myself a rest then.
For reading all my HC205 notes at one go.

Will be going back to school tmr.
And back to doing my HC 205 report.
Hopefully, study astro too.

Then thurs. Ah, hate thurs. 7 hours of lesson, no break and have to see some people..

Then fri. Going back to school to practice presentation for next week with my team mates. Not so bad, I think.

Then sat, finally meeting my clique!!=))
Felt like so long never get to see them.

Sun, back to working mode...
You know what, I guess maybe I do enjoy working more than studying.
At least you do not have to do your work after working hours.
And you earn money.

Keep telling myself, 4 more weeks, and I will be free.
In a way.
At least get to stay at home and study all day long.
Then maybe play a bit.
Before I know it, everything will be over.
It will be fine.
Everything will be fine.

To tell you the truth, I am a bit disappointed.
It just shows how much you really care...

It's always good to blog.
Especially when you are feeling down.
Seriously, I have no idea myself too.

One second, I was like all contented then the next moment, I am emoing.

The cause of all these?
No, it's not because of bad experience.
Just that...haiz...

It had been getting more frequent now.
Sometimes, I just miss my friends so much that it hurts.

I never knew how important they are in my life.
Never knew I am so deeply influenced by them.
I never used to be like that...
Is that a good thing?

I kept telling myself to give uni a chance.
I did. I talked to my friends about problems.
I tried to strike conservation with my teammates... but it's still the same.

Everything just stays there.

Just imagine my days for a week.

Day 1: Go for HC205 tutorial alone, sit alone because the friend I know might or might not come. Even if she did, she is normally busy with her work. The rest, all like know each other.

One hour break. Go library alone to study then go for my HC214 tutorial. Sat with my teammates. Nice people. Can talk but it's never enough for me.

Meet my friend and go have lunch together. Listen to them talk,laugh at their jokes, leave a comment here and there.

Lecture and go home.

Tuesday: At home, studying.

Wed: Morning lecture, go library to study, go tutorial, go home.

Thurs: HC214 lecture, sit alone. HW111C tutorial, sit alone. HC205 lecture, listen to lecture. No time to talk.

Fri: I don't go school. Study. Ok, and I do that like everyday, every week. =((

It's really hard for me. I HATE having no close friends around me. =((

Yes, I did try to sms my besties.
Dot, she is in uni, have lessons, need to rush assignments, will reply my mes a few hours later.

Sometimes, I just want you to reply immediately but it's not possible

Pak, in army, sometimes underground, will mes during his break but normally after a few mes, it just die. After he come out from army, worst. He will most prob be out somewhere.

Talk to you on facebook today but you end up being offline after a few sentences...

They are really good besties but... you know what? I need you by my side.
I never dare to admit but miss all my friends so much that it hurts.
Everywhere I go, I see people chatting happily together, me?
All alone by myself.

It just hurts too much to be alone...
I just wish someone will be my side, hold my hand and tell me "it's ok, I will be my your side." =(

Ok, enough of emoing. Share a nice touching thing that my sis told me.

A girlfriend told her boyfriend that she wanted him to say to the universe how much he loves here.
The boyfriend lean in to her ear and whispered "I love you."
Girlfriend: "why do you whisper in my ear?"
Boyfriend: "Because you are the universe to me."

Aww~~so sweet~~ =DDD