Waiting for my fish and chip for dinner...=))
So I came to blog.
Seriously, something must have gone horribly wrong .
One moment, I am so emo that I think I can really die,
The next moment, I am jumping around.
-_-
I am not joking but somehow studying make me happy.
Haha.
=X
Yes, I am nuts. In case, you never notice.
Woo~~Yea~~~Ah~~~
XD
It might be true that you are broken,
It might be true that you have been unhappy,
It might be true that you have lie to yourself all these years,
It might be true that you cannot find yourself.
So what?
You live for the present and the future, not the past.
You said you are afraid of people to be worried about you.
But have you ever wonder,
hiding your true feelings will even make them even more worried?
And you have forgotten one very important thing.
You are kind in nature, how can you hurt people in this way?
Stop living your twisted life.
Stop being the twisted you.
From today onwards, you are who you are.
No more hiding feelings,
No more hiding thoughts.
Who said that being emo is bad?
Reflecting makes you see yourself clearer and better.
Guess what, I just found a new found me =).
Amee Sotong signing off
2:33 AM
Wordless.
I rem coming across this list of questions on FB.
如果，你发现这日志说的对，那说明你真的受伤了…
有时候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人说话，只想一个人静静的发呆。
Yes.
Just like what I am doing now.
有时候，突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，心里闷的发慌，拼命想寻找一个出口。
Yes.
Everyday.
有时候，发现身边的人都不了解自己，面对着身边的人，突然觉得说不出话。
Yes.
How can you even speak?
Do not make them worry, amee.
有时候，感觉自己与世界格格不入，曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非。
Yes.
Often. Too often that I am confused.
有时候，突然很想逃离现在的生活，想不顾一切收拾自己简单的行李去流浪。
Yes.
But where can I go?
有时候，别人突然对你说，我觉得你变了，然后自己开始百感交集。
Yes.
Hurt me so deeply that for a moment, I really nearly cry on the spot.
有时候，希望时间为自己停下，做完己还没来得及做的事情。
Yes.
But time will not stop...
有时候，想一个人躲起来脆弱，不愿别人看到自己的伤口。
Yes.
Every day, every moment, all my life.
有时候，突然很想哭，却难过的哭不出来。
Yes.
But my heart is bleeding.
有时候，夜深人静，突然觉得不是睡不着，而是固执地不想睡。
Yes.
Because I am scared that the moment I closed my eyes, everything will be gone.
有时候，走过熟悉的街角，看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一个人的脸。
Yes.
Too much memories.
有时候，明明自己心里有很多话要说，却不知道怎样表达。
Yes.
Wordless.
有时候，觉得自己拥有着整个世界，一瞬间却又觉得自己其实一无所有。
Yes.
I wonder why...
真的只是有时候，明明自己身边很多朋友，却依然觉得孤单。
Yes.
Because even your closest friend cannot see through your heart.
有时候，很想放纵自己，希望自己痛痛快快歇斯底里地发一次疯。
Yes.
And really planning to.
有时候，突然找不到自己，把自己丢的无影无踪。
Yes.
I cannot find myself long ago.
有时候，心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪，觉得自己很累很累。
Yes.
Everyday, esp when I am alone.
有时候，看不到自己未来的样子，迷茫的不知所措。
Yes.
Since the start of uni...
有时候，发现自己一夜之间长大了。
Yes.
But sometimes, I wonder...
有时候，听到一首歌，就会突然想起一个人。
Yes.
More like will suddenly feel something very strongly...
有时候，希望能找个人好好疼爱自己，渴望一种安全感。可当那个可以疼你的人出现的时候，你却偏执地退隐。
Yes.
If only...
What is this person trying to do?
Just hide, amee.
有时候，别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话，心里郁闷的发慌。
Yes.
If I have keep my mouth shut.
有时候，被别人伤害，嘴上讲没事，其实心里难过的要死。
Yes.
Can you even hear my heart dripping blood?
有时候，常常在回忆里挣扎，有很多过去无法释怀。
Yes.
Just too many memories...
有时候，很容易感动别人的关怀，有时候却麻木地像个笨蛋。
Yes.
Was nearly crying when I saw the post dot post up.
有时候，看着时间一点点流逝，任凭叹息，自己却无能为力。
Yes.
Always.
其实，有时候，真的会想这么多。。。
Yes.
Always can't stop thinking...
Looks like I am really sick.
For all my 20 years,
I have been lying...
Are you ok with this?
Ya. Sure. =)
No, I am not.
Are you really all right?
Ya, why I am not?=)
No, I am not. Save me.
Do you want to play?
No, not really.
Yes, I do.
Hey, go to work, ok?
Yep. sure. No prob. =)
No, I really need a rest.
You are too kind, amee.
Why spare a thought for others when they are hurting you badly?
Why are you worried that they will be worried when you are not all right?
Look what you have become.
Look at what you have lost.
Is all that really worth it?
You are a big idiot.
Breathe, amee.
Don't leave me alone.
丢了的自己，要记得捡回来……
Amee Sotong signing off
4:26 AM
Name: Amy Zhuo aka Amee 
