My Sotong House ^.^

For my bestie, dot dot ...

2011-12-29T18:54:00.000-08:00

This post is dedicated specially to my bestie, dot dot...

The clock is ticking away...
And when the clock struck 12 tonight,
you will enter another phrase of your life.

=D

It has been a great pleasure having you as my bestie.
I will always rem the days that we have together...

The day we first met,
The days we rushed our assignments,
The days we finally completed our assignments,
The day we ate waffle with ice cream together,
The day I called you in tears,
The day you accompany me when I am upset,
The day we went hiking...

The secrets we share,
The sadness we share,
The happiness we share,
The memories we share,

All that seem impossible...
All that we make it possible...

On this last day before your adulthood,
I am glad to have you as my bestie.

When you enter another phrase of your life tonight,
I will still be here for you....

BFF =D

不知。。。

2011-11-25T06:21:00.000-08:00

好可怕。。。
你真的好可怕。。。

你是谁？
为何会存在我的心里？

是何时？
我让你进入我的心里？

第一次，我因为看到自己而感到害怕。

真的？假的？
我已经渐渐分不清了。

我从没想过我会是这样的人。

变了吗？
我不知道。。。

为何心痛？

是因为她的无助？
是因为他的话？
是因为他的不了解？
是因为你的罪恶感？
是因为你的自私？

不懂。。。
不懂。
不想懂！

寻寻觅觅，寻寻觅觅。。。
我已经不知道我是害怕拥有，还是害怕失去。。。

平静的夜晚，
细细的小雨，
为何我的心却如此地坦克不安呢？

没事的！
没事的。
没事的。。。
为何我的心感到更加沉重？

仿佛时间停滞，
漫漫的，渐渐的，
我沉到了海底。。。

救救她。。。

难眠的一晚

2011-11-16T18:14:00.000-08:00

早知道就不要看了。。。
明明已经告诉自己不会被影响了。。。

反反复复，来来回回，

我讨厌夜晚，
讨厌夜晚的宁静，
讨厌夜晚的黑暗
讨厌难眠的感觉，
讨厌不由自主的胡思乱想。。。

慢慢的，渐渐的，

把我吞进了黑暗。

已经好久了。
已经好久了。。。

明明不堪回首的感触，
却悄悄的，静静的，
再次占领了我。

不可以沉默，一旦沉默了，
就会被黑暗吞噬。。。

反抗，挣扎，
独自的战争，
又如何战胜？

沉默。
孤独。
你们真的可以守护我吗？

你们的好意我心领了。
也感到非常的感动。
你们或许可以守护我一时，但不可能守护我一世。

不用管我。
去守护你们心爱的人吧。
去守护她/他，
千万不要让他/她为你流泪。
因为心痛是唯一无法治疗的病。

不用守护我。
因为当你们离我而去，
我就只会为你们的离别感到更心痛。

没关系的，
已经习惯了。

一个人默默地站着，不常是件坏事。
至少不会再次受到伤害。

现在的我，只想一个人默默地保护我自己。
够了。
真的够了。
我已经没有勇气面对任何伤痛。

一次，一次就好。
求求你，让我离开着无底的黑暗。。。

反反复复，来来回回，

寻寻觅觅，寻寻觅觅，
一个温暖的怀抱，
这样的要求，算不算太高？

Start of school

2011-08-21T05:13:00.000-07:00

It had been a week since the start of school~~
Getting used to the new timetable, with new modules, with some new people and teachers all over again...

Not so bad so far. =D
Meet a few friends that seemed friendly enough and working back with some old friends too~~

But just a downmark when I saw her in my class...
haiz...

Nvm, just stay far away from her then.

Anyway, had been doing well so far~~
Managed to 'fight' and get the topic I want~~Woo~~
Managed to study modules that were quite interesting this sem~~
And surprisely, got the bursary~~
OMG~~
Totally did not expected that~~haha. So happy~~ =DD

I guess once again, the lot is right~~
As long as I work hard this sem, I am going to get what I deserved~~ =DD
I am not greedy. Just hope for a slight improvment in my grades? =D

Making a decision too. Not too sure if I can really do it but I guess if I never try, I will never know? As for what it is...tell you when I really succeed then. =X

Keep your fingers crossed for me too~~

P.s.: Really doing anything now except going back to read my notes. =XX

A new start =D

2011-08-09T06:19:00.000-07:00

And...

Holidays are over~~=(

Haiz...good times always pass so fast...

But I am really glad to enjoy the last part of my holidays.

Special thanks to my clique,

Jo, Chia ling, dot, jus, sherlene and wei han...

Have not meet up for so long.

Really miss them.

It's good to see everyone is doing well. =D

Keep in touch~~

Let's go fly kite soon!!

Special thanks to LOL gang,

Wa...when have it been since we last sit down and play a game?

Haha.

Enjoy not letting KC win~~ =DD

Thanks aik for sending us back and forth with car~~

Thanks mau for the 'sorry' game~~

Most importantly,

Thank you, Mummy~~

For accompany me in work~~

For letting me camp at your house~~

Then randomly knowing and going out with Hong kong intership friends~~

Then go KL shopping~~

My life have been more meaningful and much more easier to tide thanks to all of you. =DD

Now, I can really feel that the worst are gone.

And a new, refresh start is possible. =DD

First day of school tmr~~

But this time round, I quite look forward to it though.haha.

Because I have my friends with me~~

And the modules that I am studying seem to be quite interesting~ =DD

Looking forward to join more cca and make more friends too~

Or even pick up new skills~~

=DDD

There is always a reason to smile everyday. =)

=(

2011-07-15T18:59:00.000-07:00

I AM ANGRY!

I AM UPSET!

I AM HUNGRY!!!!!!!

That's why never offend someone when they are hungry.

This is what happen to a hungry person...

Haiz...why so hard to get all of you out for an outing~~

=(((

I can TOTALLY understand that all of us have our own life and own events

but seriously,

being the planner,

after times and times of rejections,

cannot make it etc...

I GET UPSET, OK?

You think it's so easy to plan outing??

Have to wait for everyone to reply...

Decide where to go...

Try to make sure most of you can make it...

Then personally, I will give up my time with other outings to make time for all of us...

RAWR!!!

Why do I have to go through all this?

Plan so hard then cannot make it...

Looking forward to the day then everything get dashed.

I AM SICK OF TIRED OF THIS DISAPPOITMENT OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

Angry~~pissed off liao~~

Then starting to shoot at others who have upset her previously. =X

(Totally not relating to the outing at all.)

I am human afterall.

I am not immune to emotions.

Really.

Being nice and understanding does not mean you can stamp over my feelings.

RAWR!!

To think that I put so much trust and faith in you.

Don't you even spare a thought for me?

HOW DARE YOU DARE TO ASK ME IF I AM ALL RIGHT AFTER SO LONG?!

You should have jolly well done that when things happen.

If you DO CARE.

Yes, you are in a hard position.

Yes, you are not in a good position to comfort.

Screw you!!

Who cares about all that if you really care!?

Then, go into'conflict' mode.

Haiz...

But is it really good to have them by your side?

You know.

It's because they care that's why they do not want to upset you more.

It's really conflicting sometimes.

The person who get hurt can shout out for help...

but what about those who hurt others?

Do you really think they have it easy too?

They don't even qualify to shout out for help.

(Heard that in a drama...so deep...but yet so true...)

What should you do then?

I don't know...

I really don't know.

......

Why bother to find an answer so fast now?

It's not possible to recover fast.

Just leave things as it is then.

You will get an answer when the time is right. =)

LOL. Totally...now, I am not hungry anymore.=XX

RIP.

市中隐者

2011-05-28T05:50:00.000-07:00

不只为何，感到非常迷失。。。

讨厌这种感觉。

我。。。

只想成为市中隐者。

期待下一個Mr.Right出現

在我眼前

醜小鴨的我要改頭換面

變得更美

自信它是我字典裡美麗的恩典

深刻體會

心情已經完全改變我的一切

問題解決

穿上我最耀眼的高跟鞋

在你面前

換上我最亮眼的一面

讓你看見

空氣中的我散發出迷人的香味

這是絕對

自信讓我實現所有一切

全部都改變

我不再去想別人怎麼看

我就是喜歡自己很勇敢

就請你和我跟著音樂一起來搖擺

現在我只想做我自己真的很愉快

就請你秀出自己的勇敢

請走出來

讓生命起伏變得更澎湃

過得自在

苦痛與寂寞通通都不再擾亂

把握現在

充實你自己每一天

你會過得很精彩

請別再去想別人怎麼看

就做你自己就會很All Right

放開你胸懷大聲吶喊

什麼都不管

我不再去想別人怎麼看

我就是喜歡自己很勇敢

就請你和我跟著音樂

一起來搖擺

如果你現在覺得頭痛

別躲在家裡自己寂寞

不如就和我一樣一起大聲吶喊

放開所有一起來喊（High）

請別再去想別人怎麼看

就做你自己就會很All Right

放開你胸懷大聲吶喊

請你什麼都不必再管

我不再去想別人怎麼看

我就是喜歡自己很勇敢

就請你和我跟著音樂

一起來搖擺

我不再去想別人怎麼看

我就是喜歡自己很勇敢

現在我只想做我自己

真的很愉快

An eventful day

2011-05-07T20:49:00.000-07:00

Totally damn tired now.
I have no idea how I am going to study today.
Will be spinning around soon. =X

Why? Thanks to the eventful day yesterday. TOTALLY.

My dad was being very nice.
Fetch me to school for exam on a sturday afternoon for my first exam.
Then my sisters tag along to go to jurong point just to enjoy the air con since it has been quite hot these few days.
Thanks ah. -_-

But that's not the end.
When I reach the exam hall, everywhere was like so quiet.
Ok, maybe because I reach too early?

Hence, I just sat down somewhere and study a bit.
The day was like so HOT...
Took out my paper to check.Yep.correct.

1.10pm: Mes my friends but none of them reply.

1.15pm: Started calling my friends but none of them pick up their calls.

1.20pm: Ok, this was werid...it was creepy quiet here...

1.25pm: Ok, something was going wrong...spamming my friends with phone call. Don't tell me I got my venue WRONG? Or did sth happen?? My exam was supposed to start at 1.30pm!!

1.30pm: In panic state*. Ok, that's it. I am walking to the exam hall.

1.35pm: Open the door. Can see that the floor had a lot of bags. So werid...they should have ended their exam by now?

1.38pm: Walked up to the secruity guard and asked him did he know what exam was taking place here?

1.4opm: The invigilator came out. Told her that I was supposed to have a exam paper at 1.30pm here. She told me the exam started at 1pm...

HUH!? Did I got my venue wrong?? Asked her to check if my module was tested here.

After like dying stupid few minutes, she came out.

1.45pm: "Yes, your module was tested here but started at 1pm..."

OMG,OMG,OMG!!!!
Seriously, yes, I am blur but to get my exam timing WRONG!?

Walked into the exam hall, walked up and down to look for my sit.

1.50pm: Finally sat down at my seat. Totally well done. My seat in front of invigilator table...-_-
Was totally on the verge of nervous breakdown.*
No, you can do this. You have no time to think about your emotions. Do your paper!!

...
...

Going to 3pm: OMG, how long was my paper? Am I going to end at 3pm? I have 9 questions in total and I have managed to chiong 7 questions. 2 more questions to go!!

Struck 3pm, saw my paper, wait...2 and a half hour...Ok, half an hour more. CHIONG!!!

3.30pm: Drop dead. OMG, OMG,OMG. I managed to finish it.Yes, I have write down all I have know about the question. Ok, maybe left with half a paragraph not done but yes, I did it!

3.40pm: Walked towards my friends.

Amee: "OMG, I was late for my paper for 45 min!!" =((
My friends: "WHAT!?" Give me sympathic look. "Ah...then cannot finish your paper..."
Amee: "Huh?! No, I did managed to finish it.AT least wrote down whatever I have studied."
My friends: In shock*

3.45pm: Went out to my dad's van. "OMG~~"

Yes, I always know I am a blur sotong but to the extent of this!? I think I am going to have nightmares these few days.

Yes, this is nothing to be proud of but luckily I have no regrets. As for if I am passing this exam, not too sure but it's 50% so should be able to pass?

Yes, you must think that I have copied the timing wrongly on my paper but guess what? I WROTE THE TIME CORRECTLY. o_O

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH MY EYES!?

P.s.: Stayed up to 3 plus to listen to the election...super tired now...>.<

Exams!!

2011-05-03T18:39:00.000-07:00

Exactly how I feel now...

In studying mode*

Can't wait for exams to be over~~

=D

2011-04-22T05:21:00.000-07:00

Yep. I am back.=X

This time with some happy memories.

I know this is like so like -_-

One moment, I am all angry and all, the next moment and I am jumping around. haha.

That's a girl for you. =XX

Wait...what did I want to blog anyway?

Oh, went out with my sec school friend, kalyn last sun.

Have not really seen each other for quite long.

Good to catch up with one another. =D

Kalyn, no worries about uni.

What come will come.

Jia you! =DD

Keep me update about the news when you get it! =DD

And FINALLY went to shop~~ =DD

Ok, I know I have to save up for my taiwan trip but well, the things I brought were ESSENTIAL.

In a way. =X

P.s.: Hello, RABBIT~~ =DDDD

-_-

2011-04-21T05:10:00.000-07:00

Today is like totally -_-

Was like feeling very tired from 7 hours of non-stop lessons with no break...

Feeling so upset and lonely...

Seeing people that I don't like...

Waiting for my dad to come and fetch me...

Then this group of stupid china guys walked past me.

(Seriously, I have NOTHING against china people)

but the remarks they made...

"Do you see that? SO SKINNY."

Fact number 1:

Erm...hello, I can hear you well LOUD AND CLEAR?

Fact number 2:

I have nothing against that seriously but his irriating tone was pissing me off.

Especially after like one LONG, BAD day...

As if that was not enough, next he went on 'screaming'

"Should eat fatter la~~"

TOTALLY PISSED OFF.

I know the next thing I am going to say is like so going to sound so bimbo and a lot of people will kill me but...

"Hello? I just DON'T GROW FAT, ok?

Even though I ate like lunch at 3 plus, dinner at 7 plus then eat like a cup of corn, some small food and 1 mango 'tart' the previous night,

I STILL DON'T GROW FAT??

And tell you something,

I AM DAMN PROUD OF THAT, OK?

So PISSED OFF!!!"

And best, when I went home,

My dad was like asking me what I want to eat.

Me: "Two roti prata."

Dad: Shocked* "Wa...you want to eat that much?"

-_-

Sister came in.

Taking off my jacket...

Sis: "Wa, you really skinny la..."

Outburst* =X

Yes, and that ends my horrible thursday. =D

Spread the joy around~~ =D

2011-04-14T06:07:00.000-07:00

My eyes are like closing right now...

but before that, let me just shout and scream:

YES,I HAVE DONE IT!!!
I AM DONE WITH THE PRESENTATION WITH YOU KNOW WHO.
Yep~~=DD

So happy~~

Finally, no more nightmares of entering a haunted house,

seeing ghosts in dreams,

waking up suddenly at night~~

=DDDDDDDDDDD

ALL MY LIFE I HAVE BEEN GOOD,BUT NOW

OH~~~~~THINKING WHAT THE HELL~~ =DD

Drop dead*

Zzzzzzz....

What the hell~~ =X

2011-04-10T05:13:00.000-07:00

Wo~~ Yea! Congrats! I survived another week. =D

The real challenge comes now though.
2 more presentations, 2 more reports.

At least after this week, I can take a rest. Next week will not be as hectic. And I have finish one of my reports. =D So if I can manage to finish my second report by this week (high possible if I do not slack =X) I will be able to at least rest a bit.

Wait...ok, maybe not really, I think I have to start studying for my exam the next week....aw...=(

It's ok~ 3 more weeks to study week and I will be finally shutting myself at home.Haha. Lazy girl. =X

Dying to shop~~but I need to save money for taiwan...

Maybe can just get myself a few clothes and feel happy? =DD
Need to get some shorts and some comfortable nice shoes.
Anybody free to shop? =DDD

Off to another week~~

Lazy day...

2011-04-05T06:36:00.000-07:00

Suppose to be revising my astro now... But really just don't feel like doing it...=S Ok, maybe later I will just look through, ok? It's only 15 MCQ...with 8 chapters...how do I even gauge what will come up?!

And I have been studying for it for the last one week...One day rest? =D

Not that I did nothing today, I did~~

HC214 google doc and HW111c ppt? =X

Whatever.Who cares~~

It's my life, it's my time! =DD

Just went through a presentation on monday.

So happy~~

Was feeling so insecure the previous night...

Thanks pak for the encouragement.=)

And we did pretty well~~ =DD

Going to present again this thursday...

During lecture...

Wa...more people...

More SENIORS...=S

Never mind, I have nice team mates~~ =DD

It's ok. It will be much better than the one that I am doing next week...

My horrible presentation coming next week...

Can't wait to get over it~~

And 1 more presentation and 2 reports after that...o_o

No time to play...=((

Never mind, I will try to find some. haha. =XX

Went out with clique last sat. So fun~~

Let's go play and dance again~~

Feel so much better letting bad stuff out.

Sometimes, you really just need a group of supportive friends to get you through the hard times. =)

P.s.: Was thinking to myself today...

What am I really good at?

Actually, like nothing? I only know a little bit here and there.=(

Always admire people who have talent.Haiz...

Never mind, I still have you, bloggy. =)

Ok, maybe I can go and enter a writing competition? =DD

Do you really care?

2011-03-29T06:45:00.000-07:00

Supposed to be studying my astro now...
But really totally no mood.

I think I just give myself a rest then.
For reading all my HC205 notes at one go.

Will be going back to school tmr.
And back to doing my HC 205 report.
Hopefully, study astro too.

Then thurs. Ah, hate thurs. 7 hours of lesson, no break and have to see some people..

Then fri. Going back to school to practice presentation for next week with my team mates. Not so bad, I think.

Then sat, finally meeting my clique!!=))
Felt like so long never get to see them.

Sun, back to working mode...
You know what, I guess maybe I do enjoy working more than studying.
At least you do not have to do your work after working hours.
And you earn money.

Keep telling myself, 4 more weeks, and I will be free.
In a way.
At least get to stay at home and study all day long.
Then maybe play a bit.
Before I know it, everything will be over.
It will be fine.
Everything will be fine.

To tell you the truth, I am a bit disappointed.
It just shows how much you really care...

=(

2011-03-28T06:24:00.000-07:00

It's always good to blog.
Especially when you are feeling down.
Seriously, I have no idea myself too.

One second, I was like all contented then the next moment, I am emoing.

The cause of all these?
No, it's not because of bad experience.
Just that...haiz...

It had been getting more frequent now.
Sometimes, I just miss my friends so much that it hurts.

I never knew how important they are in my life.
Never knew I am so deeply influenced by them.
I never used to be like that...
Is that a good thing?

I kept telling myself to give uni a chance.
I did. I talked to my friends about problems.
I tried to strike conservation with my teammates... but it's still the same.

Everything just stays there.

Just imagine my days for a week.

Day 1: Go for HC205 tutorial alone, sit alone because the friend I know might or might not come. Even if she did, she is normally busy with her work. The rest, all like know each other.

One hour break. Go library alone to study then go for my HC214 tutorial. Sat with my teammates. Nice people. Can talk but it's never enough for me.

Meet my friend and go have lunch together. Listen to them talk,laugh at their jokes, leave a comment here and there.

Lecture and go home.

Tuesday: At home, studying.

Wed: Morning lecture, go library to study, go tutorial, go home.

Thurs: HC214 lecture, sit alone. HW111C tutorial, sit alone. HC205 lecture, listen to lecture. No time to talk.

Fri: I don't go school. Study. Ok, and I do that like everyday, every week. =((

It's really hard for me. I HATE having no close friends around me. =((

Yes, I did try to sms my besties.
Dot, she is in uni, have lessons, need to rush assignments, will reply my mes a few hours later.

Sometimes, I just want you to reply immediately but it's not possible

Pak, in army, sometimes underground, will mes during his break but normally after a few mes, it just die. After he come out from army, worst. He will most prob be out somewhere.

Talk to you on facebook today but you end up being offline after a few sentences...

They are really good besties but... you know what? I need you by my side.
I never dare to admit but miss all my friends so much that it hurts.
Everywhere I go, I see people chatting happily together, me?
All alone by myself.

It just hurts too much to be alone...
I just wish someone will be my side, hold my hand and tell me "it's ok, I will be my your side." =(

Ok, enough of emoing. Share a nice touching thing that my sis told me.

A girlfriend told her boyfriend that she wanted him to say to the universe how much he loves here.
The boyfriend lean in to her ear and whispered "I love you."
Girlfriend: "why do you whisper in my ear?"
Boyfriend: "Because you are the universe to me."

Aww~~so sweet~~ =DDD

One thing after another...

2011-03-24T07:34:00.000-07:00

Brain dead.

Body dead.

Everything just happen one thing after another.

And tmr another one.

When one hits the bottom, she really do.

没必要跟他们斗，因为你只要这样做，

你就会降到他们的程度，然后他们会用他们的程度打败你。

Like seriously...

2011-03-23T17:29:00.000-07:00

Totally.

REALLY DAMN ANGRY NOW.

SO ANGRY that I can't even sleep well.

Feel like scolding all the f* and b* words.

Yes, I am THAT ANGRY.

It's like going back to 4 years ago, but this time, I am not upset.

Just pure HARDCORE anger.

YOU don't even know me AT ALL.

How dare you SHOOT ME!

And seriously, I will have forgived if you have come on me right-on,

but all your sneaky ways and making it public,

worst, getting all the rest to be on your side?

I feel TOTALLY DISGUSTED.

And I tried to resolved all these stuff by confronting all of you at one go,

What do you all do?

Ignore me.

One having lecture (ok, reasonable)

Another say you are all right with it.

You know what, I don't even trust you all at all.

I have seen enough and know enough to know what kind of people all of you are.

LIARS.

After creating so much trouble and you don't even dare to meet me to get things clear up?

Ok, fine.

I know what to do.

If things are out of my control when I did tried to resolve and you all don't want it, fine.

I just know who is the next person to turn to.

Getting ready for a battle later.

P.s.: I really never thought that this will happen.

take a bow

2011-03-21T07:01:00.000-07:00

I am back.

I think I will be blogging for quite sometime now.

A great place to let off your feelings. =)

First day back to school after recess week.

How should I put it...

It's like time stopped for you

but the time around you just went on.

Yep. Something along that line.

Spending a lonely morning going to tutorial once again...

before meeting up my friends for lunch.

Then went to lecture and how great of our teacher to start us off by going through our mid-term exam paper questions...

If I can get like 10 marks and above, it's like a miracle?

Thanks, what a GREAT way to start our week. =(

Then another thing happened today.

I was trying to call out a meeting with my friends.

So ask them what time they are free and stuff.

Then one of them send back "I thought I email you yesterday? My free time is ......"

Me: "Oh...sorry I have not checked my email yet. I ask around then update you later?"

She sends back "Leave the decision to XXX (leader of the group) all right."

......

Not really pleased about this.

Am I just too sensitive but she sounded really irriated at me and she is thinking why I am acting leader?!

Hello~~I waited for like days and nobody is DOING anything and this is like due on thursday??

Of course, I am worried.

It's only after I went home then the leader told me one of them had written a draft then we can edit it.

Ok, you can't blame me, I only see all that by the time I get home to check my emails...

I didn't KNOW they have that GOING ON.

Ok, I am so going to wash my hands off this planning thing.

Totally PISSED OFF.

I tried to be nice and take some intiative,

and try to be helpful,

then got shot down.

And there they goes, thinking I am acting all leader or wanted some stupid position whatever...

I mean like totally, why I want that??

It's nothing but trouble. I don't even care about all these titles.

I just want to help and get things DONE.

What's wrong with THAT?!

Pissed off.TOTALLY.

Starting the week with a bad start...

.........

Maybe...it's time.

Take a bow

Oh, How about a round of applause, Hey
standing ovation
Oooooo, Yeah
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out

[Chorus]
Don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me goin'
Now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closin'
That is quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now (But it's over now)
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone)
You better hurry up
Before the sprinklers come on (come on)
Talkin' bout'
Girl, I love you, you're the one
This just looks like a re-run
Please, what else is on (on)

[Chorus]
And don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
Really had me goin'
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now (But it's over now)
Go on and take a bow

[Bridge]
Oh, And the award for
The best lie goes to you (goes to you)
For making me believe (that you)
That you could be faithful to me
Let's hear your speech, Out

But you put on quite a show
Really had me goin'
Now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closin'
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now (But it's over now)
Go on and take a bow

But it's over now

I think I have an idea what I am going to do now.

P.s.: Glad to get things out with my uni friends.

I think I just need to give myself and my uni friends a chance.=)

Anger!

2011-03-20T07:30:00.000-07:00

Here's an advice from the devil amee:

To all the girls who are hurting...BE ANGRY WITH THE PERSON WHO HURT YOU!

Give you hell!!

I wake up every evening
With a big smile on my face
And it never feels out of place.

And you're still probably working
At a 9 to 5 pace
I wonder how bad that tastes

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell,
I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell,
I hope it gives you hell

Now where's your picket fence love
And where's that shiny car
Did it ever get you far?

You never seem so tense, love
Never seen you fall so hard
Do you know where you are?

Truth be told I miss you
Truth be told I'm lying

When you see my faceI hope it gives you hell,
I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my wayI hope it gives you hell,
I hope it gives you hellIf you find a man thats worth the damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool you're just as well hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself
Where did it all go wrong?
But the list goes on and on

Truth be told I miss you
Truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell,
I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell,
I hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth the damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool you're just as well hope it gives you hell

Now you'll never see
What you've done to me
You can take back your memories
They're no good to me
And here's all your lies

you look me in the eyes
With the sad, sad look
That you wear so well

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell,
I hope it gives you hell

When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell,
I hope it gives you hell

If you find a man that's worth the damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool you're just as well hope it gives you hell

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell,
I hope it gives you hell (hope it gives you hell)

When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell,
I hope it gives you hell (hope it gives you hell)

When you hear this song and you sing along well you'll never tell
And you're the fool I've just as well
I hope it gives you hell

When you hear this song
I hope that it will give you hell
You can sing along I hope that it puts you through hell

Bust your windows

I bust the windows out your car
And though it didn’t mend my broken heart
I'll probably always have these ugly scarsbut
but right now I don’t care about that part.

I bust the windows out your car
After I saw you looking right at her
I didn’t wanna but I took my turn
I’m glad I did it cuz you had to learn

I must admit it helped a little bit
To think of how you'd feel when you saw it
I didn’t know that I had that much strength
But I’m glad you see what happens when

You see you cant just play with peoples feelings
Tell them you love them and don’t mean it
you’ll probably say that it was juvenile
But I think that I deserve to smile ha, ha, ha, ha, ha

I bust the windows out ya car
You know I did it cuz I left my mark
Wrote my initials with the crowbar
And then I drove off into the dark
I bust the windows out ya car ha,
you should feel lucky that was all I did
After 5 whole years of this bullshit
Gave you all of me and you played with it

I must admit it helped a little bit
To think of how you'd feel when you saw
I didn’t know that I had that much strength
But I’m glad you see what happens when

You see you cant just play with peoples feelings
Tell them you love them but don’t mean it
You probably say that it was juvenile
But I think that I deserve to smile

Bust them windows out yo car
But it don’t come back to my broken heart
You could never feel I how I felt that day
Until it happens baby you don’t know pain

Ooh Yeah I did it (yeah I did it)
You should know it (you should know it)
I ain’t sorry (I ain’t sorry)
You deserved it (you deserved it)
After what you did to me (after what you did)
You deserve it (you deserve it)
I ain’t sorry no no ohhh(I aint sorry)
You broke my heart so I broke you car

You caused me pain (you caused me pain)(So I did the same)
Even though what you did to me was much worse
I had to do something to make you hurt
Oh but why am I still crying

Why am I the one who’s still crying
Oh oh really hurt me baby,you really,really hurt me baby
Hey hey hey hey hey
Now watch me you
Now watch me
Oooh I bust the windows out your car.

Rose's turn

All that work and what did it get me?
Why did I do it?
Scrapbooks full of me in the background.
Give 'em love and what does it get ya?

What does it get you
One quick look as each of 'em leaves you.

All your life and what does it get ya?
Thanks a lot and out with the garbage,
They take bows and you're battin zero

Ihad a dreamI dreamed it for you, Dad
It wasn't for me, Dad
And if it wasn't for me then where would you be,Miss Rachel Berry

Well, someone tell me, when is it my turn
Don't I get a dream for myself
Starting now it's gonna be my turn.
Gangway, world, get off of my runway
Starting now I bat a thousand!
This time, boys I'm taking the bows and
Everything's coming up Kurt

Everything's coming up Humme
lEverything's coming up Kurt
This time for me (ha ha ha ha ha)
For me!
For me!
For me!
For me!
Fooooor meeeeeee!
Yeaaah!

When you are hurt, say it out loud.

2011-03-18T22:57:00.001-07:00

Sorry, people.
I guess all of you will be reading some emo posts from me for now.

Because I have found myself another new year resolution.
Speak out.

Thta's why for once, I am not going to pretend that I am strong and I am not hurt,
but admit I am hurt and faced up to it.

After talking to dot yesterday,
I came to realise everytime I am upset, I just stack everything inside of me.
Then when things turn bad, the feeling will just get worse overtime.

Huh...I hear this before...
Anyway, it's has really becoming a bad habit of mine.
And I realise it's time to change all this.
So that I can load my heart with more happiness and less sadness. =D

I am hurt.
Deeply.
No doubt.
But at least, I am slowly learning from it.
I just need some time.
Some help.
And I will be fine.=D

It's great to be blogging and listening to songs.
It's always help when you are feeling terrible. =)

Went back to ngee ann with dot yesterday.
It changed so much. I can't even recognise it anymore.
We walked around the school and I realised I really miss poly.
Every corner is filled with so much memories.
So much fun.
Ok, I am crazy but I miss all the times we rush assignments.

It's just so...totally different in uni.
I might have been in one semster in uni but I guess I am not really adapting well.
You just have to be much more independent.

I don't really like that.
I missed my friends. =(

I have a few closer friends in uni.
We have lunch every once a week?
And attend some lectures together.

But you know what? It's still very different.
You don't really get to the state whereby all of you have those heart to heart talk.
Not that I don't want to but they just don't.

Ever imagine after that, you have to go to each tutorial and even some lecture alone,
and in every class, you don't even know anyone?
You might ask, just get to know people.
Yes, you get to know people...but it's just not the same anymore.

They are not that kind of friends who you will hang out every single moment,
but just classmates and school mates.

Then you also have to adapt to learning something that you have no prior knowledge and they expect you to be of certain standard.

It's really hard.
You just get burn out so easily.

Then, something bad happen to you.
Hurting you more.

It's really, really hard.
Just one problem after another...

But luckily, I have a great group of friends.
Thanks.
Without you all, I really will not have survive.

I have no idea how but they always just manage to drive the negative out of me and fill me with positivity.=)

From the walk in ngee ann yesterday, I also realise one thing.
Ngee ann contains just so much good memories, good times, good friends,good aura
that I don't even want to move on.
So much that I don't even give uni a chance.

Perhaps,
just perhaps.
I can just try.
Maybe things will not be as bad as I thought.

I miss the me when I was in poly.
The one who is full of craziness,
full of passion,
full of confidence.

I miss her so much that it hurts.

I just realise when I leave ngee ann, I leave her behind too.

I guess I just need to find myself again.

Ok,feel much better now. Type out negative emotions. =X

Will be back soon. I think.

Alone

2011-03-17T19:26:00.000-07:00

My mind is in a totally confusing state now...
I don't even know where to start...

Let me just say I have not been totally honest with anyone of you.
I have not been a good friend,
I have not been a good daugther,
I have not been a good schoolmate
I have not been a good bestie...
...
so much.
so much...

Just this morning, I was typing out an sms.

How are you feeling now?
I don't know.
Everything is just too fast.
I still rem the day all I hope has finally come true...
Everything seems so unreal.
I admit I am not as happy as I thought I will be.
but at least, at least,
I stop feeling pain within me.

Now...
all that dream have been crushed.
Just when I started believing.
How werid.
Tears are rolling down my eyes
but...
I don't even feel how I feel.
It feels as if I have no more feelings.

Is this scary or a blessing in disguise?
I have no idea.
But what I do know is that everytime I end up believing,I will always get hurt.

No.
No one is saving you.
There is never a door for you, little girl.

After I wrote that, I realise...I don't even know who I can send it to.

I thought I have changed.
But by the end of the day, I always come to realise I am all alone by myself.

Welcome, pain. Welcome to my life.
No, I should say you have always been there.
Just that I have always been running away from you.

I am not running now.
Because you have already become part of me.

I am sick and tired.
I am sick of always listening to people and doing things that I don't even like.
I am tired of believing and thinking everything is possible when it is not going to be.
I am sick and tired of myself not being able to face up to reality,
I am sick and tired of myself trying to accomodate to everyone else.

Every hour,
Every minute,
Every second,

I tell myself,
it's going to be all right.It's going to be all right.

No,
I am not ok.
If there is even an option, I will have disappear this very minute
and maybe I will never ever come back.

Not to run away,
but to throw away my past
and allow myself to start afresh.

I look into the mirror and I can't even see who I am now.
Who is this girl?
What do you want?

I have no idea at all.

No, I am not angry.
Just that, I don't even have the ability to think or sort out my feelings right now (if any ever remains).

I need a rest.
I want a rest.
I am not sure if I can find myself
but at least,
but at least,
let me just step out for a while
to breathe.

Perhaps after that,
I can then bother to find myself,
and find others again.

You say "just, just make sure I am all right."
I did not reply.
Because this is one thing I can't promise.
It's just like you went through an operation.
You heal but your scar will be there forever.

I can't even give any answers right now.
Not to myself,
Not to you,
Not to my friends,
Not to my family.

Till everything settles...

I just want to be alone...
Alone.

Killing time~~

2011-03-06T05:51:00.000-08:00

Waiting to see if my lecturer decides to post up his lecture for tmr...
Haiz...
Can't he post up earlier...
And I bet you are wondering why I just can't go to sleep and ignore him?
Because he will CALL people to read some poems tmr
and if you are not prepared, you are DIED.

Yep.Ok, maybe not so bad...but ah~~ faster~~ I want to sleep~~

Lucky I am in love with my best friend~~
Lucky to have been where I have been~~

LOL. Typing out what I am listening. =X

And the stupid web just jam again and I have to refresh my page...>.<
No~~

Seriously, at the rate I am going, I will blogging a super long post...=X
Guess I am really good at crapping~~ Yea~~ =DD

If only, this can be put into my real life...
But quite impossible.
Why?
Because I have long given up trying to talk to everyone and be friendly and strike up conservation...

Totally not my character.So quit~~=X
Well,I tried.
But still, I feel more comfortable to stay the way I am. Wahahaha~~ =DD

Ok, now I am talking rubbish.
That's what happened when you are tired not NOT ABLE to sleep. = S

FASTER!!

Tick tock, tick tock. Congrats~ 8 minutes have passed! XD

-_-

Can't wait for my mid to end this wed...I want to watch my glee~~
Yes, did I mention? My sis went to buy glee season 1 and it's like 60 plus???!!! o_o

That's what happen when my younger sis psycho her too much that she was finallly tempted.LOL. =XX

And my elder sis is flying to thailand soon...I want go overseas too~~~
Oh, wait, I might get to go malaysia one of the days in may~~
My mum said she wants go malaysia to eat.
LOL. So whole family going?? =DD

Ok, there must be something wrong with the time...it's only ONE minute?! -_-

Ok, go check again...
and NO, still don't have...=(((

Sleep, sleep~~ I want to sleep~~

Ok, 7 more minutes that I will give up. =D

daydream for 2 minutes*

And 5 more minutes~~ =DD

This is what happened to you when you get dragged out from bed early in the morning by your mum to go temples to pray and eat breakfast...

Then out agian to attend wedding...
Then back to study yr test on wed...

0_0

1 more minute...and he still have not post UP...

For the last minute,
it might be passing so slowly,
but luckily I have you here with me. =)

Ok, my teacher is not posting up. (Just my assumption =X)

Don't care liao~~ I am tired and I want to SLEEP!!

Zzzzzzz...

First day of 2011

2011-02-04T05:46:00.000-08:00

When picture warms your heart and speaks for you... =DD

Aftermath: Actually, I am just angry at the system for NOT being able to upload my files. =XX

Last day of 2010

2011-02-03T04:51:00.000-08:00

I am back~~

Sorry to take so long to update my blog...

Have been really busy with school, new year, birthday celebrations and chinese new year. =X

Hence, yes, I have like tons to blog about.

Let's us go back to the last day of 2010...=XX

Rem the resolution I have to conquer the bridges in Singapore?

Yep, did that with dot on the last day of 2010.

We decided to go kent ridge park. =DD

Took train then change to bus all the way...

Then the bus driver was like "Erm...it's the last stop here, please alight~~"

Me and dot were like "HUH?! Did we missed the stop???"

Hence, in the end, we went to the opposite and took the SAME bus with the SAME driver back.

It's a loop bus and I bet the bus driver had like no idea why we took the bus to the last stop and back again.OMG.LOL. =XX

This is the bus we took like twice? =XX

Yea~~ Yes, you have the two blur sotongs here =DD

And you know what is the most well done thing?

We went back a few stops and were like

"Erm...I think we missed the stop again..."

Thinking something was wrong, we alighted, only to find out the LAST stop that we have gone just now was the CORRECT stop...=XXX

Yea~~ =XX

The bus stop we alighted...

Ah...You can't blame us...you have two road idiots here trying to find the way...=XX

And it started raining...=((

Actually, it's not really our fault because there was NOTHING there that point out that was the way to Kent ridge park...=X

Only after walking a small lane then we saw this...

Like seriously, they should put this sign in front?!

This was the small path we walked...

Do you have any idea this was the way to kent ridge park?!

We walked more and saw this on the floor...

Amee: "Erm...so are we walking on canopy walk now? I thought it was supposed to be a bridge???"

Hence, we walked on to find this... =DDD

It's quite nice for a change. =DD

Took a nice pic there and walked on~~

Seriously, there were like a lot of different paths leading to different areas...

We were like "Huh...so which one should we walked?"

And there was NO SIGN.

Hence, here's what we did...

We turned left, walked about 50 steps then felt that something was wrong so walked back.

Then, we walked straight only to realise that the bridge should be somewhere higher?

Hence, we walked back to the centre and faced this horrible long stairs and climbed up.

=X

Seriously, never ever go there alone. It was too quiet there like in broad daylight!?

But I guess we were werid too...

I mean who will go to the park on a new year eve? LOL. =XX

The long road we walked when we came to the end of the stairs...

Nearly dying by now.

Amee: "Dot, we should totally orgainsed amazing race here..=XX"

Walked for like 10 minutes before we came to the top and saw a nice view...

Ok, it's not very obvious but there was supposed to be like be able to see a bit of the edge of the sea and all that...=DD

Our first achievement but not yet satisfied as we still want our canopy walk!!

After walking for almost 20 minutes then we saw this...

You mean we just arrived at kent ridge park!? -__-

Ok, this is like really the best...so let's take a picture~~ =XX

And we found this...

A cable car in the middle of nowhere~~ =DD

This park is even more random than us. LOL.

Went on to walk...

We finally reached the canopy walk~~ =DD

It is like totally in this werid small lane...

and it does not even have like a sign saying it's canopy walk...haha. =XX

Walked about 20 steps and saw a big bee flying in front of us...

And I swear it was BLUE.

What did we did?

Amee: "Erm...dot...let's wait till it flies to the side and we run for it, ok?"

Bee took like forever to fly to the side*

Dot and amee dashed and ran*

Yes, I want to be close to nature but not to insects. =XX

After walking and this is the view from the canopy walk...not bad? =DD

And we came to the end of the canopy walk in like 5 minutes? =X

Ok, this is like totally WELL DONE. =XX

but...

Dot and me are still determined to conquer the bridges! =DDD

After walking downhill in circles for like 15 minutes? We arrived at...

This.

And have totally no idea where we are. LOL.

Yea~~Well done~~ =DD

P.s.: Heard from dorothy later saying her dad said that actually it's not really safe to go there...=XX

And went off to meet AOL gang after that to countdown~~

Sat down to play a lot of rounds of monopoly deal and gerry ended up winning like every single one of them...-_-

And after like 4 hours of waiting~~ FIREWORKS!!!

Happy 2011!! XDXD

当小冰块遇见暖炉。。。

2011-01-25T01:57:00.000-08:00

从前，有一颗小冰块。
这颗小冰块有一个与众不同的怪特点；
它怕冷。

因为这个怪特点，小冰块与别的小冰块一点也合不来。
于是，它决定踏上自己的小旅程，寻找自己的容身之处。

不知走了多久，突然之间，小冰块不冷了。
只见眼前出现一个大大，方方的‘盒纸’。

“你好，我是小冰块。你好温暖哦~~你是谁？”
“我是暖炉。我那里温暖了？好热啊！你才好呢。冰冰的。=）”

小冰块抬头看了看暖炉。。。
暖炉低下头看了看小冰块。。。

就这样，
一颗怕冷的小冰块遇到了一个可以温暖它的小暖炉。
一个怕热的小暖炉遇到了一个可以冷冻它的小冰块。

神啊，找到了！
找到了。
找到了。。。
但你在跟我开玩笑吗？

叮咚，叮咚。
小冰块慢慢地，渐渐地消失了。
叮咚，叮咚。
暖炉慢慢地，渐渐地堆满了一尘又一尘的灰尘。。。

为何是它？
为何让我找到但却不可以让我们永远在一起呢？

叮咚，叮咚。
小冰块消失了。
叮咚，叮咚。
暖炉也不再动了。

但暖炉，你知道吗？
小冰块化成了空气仍然守护着你呢。

神啊，
竟然今世没有缘分，
那下一世可以让它们永远在一起吗？

REAL 2011 resolution

2011-01-08T23:12:00.001-08:00

Waiting for my apple pie now so decided to blog. =DD
But feel so lazy to upload any photos and blog about it. =X

So I am going to work on my 2011 resolution.

For REAL this time.haha. =XX

And really how werid, I have been thinking about this for sometime and I have so much ideas~~

but when it comes to writing down, I am mind block. =/

Nvm, let's see...what I can rem...

I was browsing through some websites to check about the bridges in Singapore,

and guess what?

It just give me an awesome 2011 resolution.

Resolution 1:

I AM GOING TO 'CONQUER" ALL THE BRIDGES AND PARK CONNECTORS~~ =DD

Yes, I am insane

anybody care to join me for a mad trip then???

On FEET.

LOL

=XX

Dot dot is the first one to sign up~~

And we have already completed one at kent ridge park and will blog about it soon.

It was really interesting. =XX

And pak (Just pull him in, don't care~~ =X)

Yep. So stay turned. Haha. =DD

Resolution 2:

Let's see...normal people will have like hope for good result, good health...

but not me.

I asked for a pass in my results =D

(Learn from my previous lesson, don't be too hard on myself, trust me, you will be happier this way. =D)

As for good health, well, if you take care of yourself, you get good health? =X

Resolution 3:

Ah~~~I just rem sth and I forget...well done. =S

Oh, oh!!!

I want to go taiwan in July~~

And will be in action soon.

Not too sure how my mum will react to this but I have pre-told her last year...

And haiz...

But as long as I am not touching my current saving now, should be fine??

My dad give me a 'go' for this already so~~ =XX

and also might be flying in dec to somewhere for a few weeks immersion if I can use my PSEA account. So yep.=DD A happy year~~ =DD

The only regret is that I never get to travel with oversea with dot and aol gang....

People, the next year,ok??? =DDD

Resolution 4:

Join more CCA and learn more things and also get to know more friends?

Sign up to help out in a camp in august and have no idea how I am going to cope with it if I am working and going overseas...=X

Well, I will managed somehow? =X

As for what other CCA I might join during august...

SECRET. =XX

Friends ah...leave it to fate.Haha. =X

Trust me, after going through 3 years trying to be people-oriented and sociable,

you have no more passion for it.

And that's totally not me.

So giving up~~ haha. =X

But, hey, I did turn for the better~~ =D

Really tried to compared the current me with my primary school me and sec school me.

You will be AMAZED by the change. =X

Resolution 5:

It's my 21 coming soon...

And really not looking forward to it...

why?

I am one year older.

Haiz...

And pak was asking me how I going to celebrate...

then I go 'Huh?! I am supposed to do sth?"

LOL. =X

Sorry, I don't really like planning for my own birthday party.

So werid...

Imagine you have to like cope with a few groups of your friends that do not know each other...

Then I have to like be 'high'

which I HATED.

Because I am a person who goes with the flow but not the person who intiate one.

Conclusion: I am just pure LAZY. so yep. =XX

So you all just plan one for me, if you plan to, then I just go along with it? Haha. =DD

And that's come to the second part of my birthday which is what I want...

Chia ling was asking me last time, dot too...

huh...I have no idea?

Really.

I am contented with what I have. =DD

But if you die die have to know what I want...

let me think...

1.boots (can be flat or with heels)

I know this is like so not practical to all of you but hey, I will WEAR it. =DD

But actually I planning to buy this when I go taiwan because it's cheaper there and more to choose from?

2. Clothes, bags, jacket?

But seriously, I don't really lack of all these...

And once again, planning to go on shopping spee when I go to taiwan? =DD

3.traveling!!

Which I am going to do it this year? =DD

LOL. I don't think I am being helpful at all. =x

Ok ok, erm...

erm...

Seriously, just either plan one celebration that is like full of fun and joy,

everybody happy (which we normally are doing.haha. =D)

get me a nice present? Like...

a hand made card?

a scrapbook?

Oh oh, I know sth that will totally make me happy like the rest of the day and week and perhaps a month.

Flowers with bear~~~~

LOL. Ok, I am werid. =XX

But hey, it's normal for a girl to have romantic thoughts. =DDD

Yep. And I am not helping. Wahahaha~~ =DD

Brain dead now so will come back if I have anymore ideas for this year resolution.

2011 resolution

2010-12-30T05:09:00.000-08:00

YEA! It's finally thursday and tmr will be my off day~~

A long weekend ahead.=)

And...

Looking forward to go on the bridge tmr with dot =D

And after that 2011 countdown~~

And that means I will be back with more photo. =DDD

Here's a special post for my dot dot 'Jie Jie',

Dear Dot dot "Jie Jie',

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

YEA!! FINALLY turning 20~~ =X

Wow, it had almost been half a year since we grad.

But have been really glad we still managed to stay as besties.=D

Thanks for always being there for me when I need you.

Really glad that I have a nice bestie to share my joy and sadness with. =D

I know it had been a tough year for you.

Hence, hope you have a GREAT year ahead and find your prince charming soon~~

(I will help you keep a look out)

=DD

Jia you!!

From Yr Amee 'Mei Mei' XD

Going to share with all of you a nice MV, I was like crying at the end of the video...

In reality, happy ending just does not exist...

Or it does?

P.s.: Did I just write 2011 resolution as my title?!

LOL.

And I wrote NOTHING about it.

Yea~~ well done, amee~~

=DDD

My short-term 'holiday'

2010-12-27T04:52:00.000-08:00

Day 1 (Right after my last exam)

Went to K with pak and pearlyn right after exam and in tip top condition for singing that day~~

Managed to sing like a few difficult song at one go in the end.

Wahahaha~~

Let's go sing more~~ =DDD

Well, pak, too bad you leave early so no photo. =X

But I did tag your money on FB. =DD

Day 2

Went out with a mini gathering with poly clique.

Have not seen them for quite long.

So happy~~

Sherlene and jus, sorry, did not call you two out because you two working.=X

Nvm, we meeting soon~~ XDXD

Saw christmas tree with tons of BEARS! Scream** =DD

Eat nice ice cream

and eat ten years worth of fats~~

Yea~~ =DDD

And found this nice and quiet place thanks to dot. =D

Do we looked like we are overseas at some cottage house?? =DDD

And of course, not forgetting dot for her cute 'bear' hairband. =DD

I have a feeling I will be the only one wearing it. LOL. =XX

Cheers and let's meet out soon~~ XDXD

Day 3

Went out with pak today and go on bus hopping~~XD

End up traveling from the east...

To china town...

And it rained...=((

And after that?

Pak: "Huh...where are we going now? You decide."

Amee: "Huh...let's hop on to the first bus that comes~~"

Bus came and we went up.*

Totally random. =X

But that's the whole plan.

LOL.

And we end up in...

Yio chu kang

Haha. =X

Saw this. Really cool. Elderly just have to tap their card on the system and it will lengthen the crossing time~~ XD

The best out of all this journey?

We went all the way back to marina parade (in the east)~~
LOL.

Thanks Pak for the doggy~~ XD

but I will not hang on my handphone and let you ill-treat it so too bad~~ =XX

Let's go bus hopping again and this time make sure you are in GOOD condition,

if not I will make sure I throw you into the sea

but no worries, I will save your mahjong. =D

P.s.: Pearlyn, yes, he giving all of us a dog key chain.haha. =D

Left photo taken by me and my sis said very strange but I thought the dog looked all right.

Can see the story within the picture?

It supposed to walk through a tough journey and finally got to the front~~ =XX

Right photo taken by my sis...

so...

I have to give

Special credit to my sis, ah yun.

(She asked for it, so I WROTE it here. =X)

Day 4

Supposed to be staying at home and doing nothing

but...

end up walking for 6 hours and spending my time SHOPPING.

That's what happen when you have 4 girls in your family. =XX

But you know what?

I have totally no idea why but I ended up seeing TONS of stuff I want to get~~

Why like that?!

Got my sis to give me advanced 21st birthday presents.haha XD

CONTENTED. =DD

Here's some pictures of what I have brought. For those who know me, I guess you will be identify what are mine? XD

Day 5

Just staying at home and slack~~ XD

And looking forward to see how my sis will kill pak when he comes~~~ =D

Go get popcorn and watch show* =DD

A joyful short holiday ! XD

Sorry that I loved you

2010-12-16T04:32:00.000-08:00

For all of the time that i tried for your smile
For making you think that i was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine
For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind

And I’m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn’t turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight

And I’m So sorry for...
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by
For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when i fled the scene
sorry love,for wasting your time

And I’m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn’t turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
I’m so sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight

And apology now after all of this time
Won’t make my difference tonight
But I’m hoping I’m Sorry will open your mind
To love love love love in your life

Sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn’t turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you

I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry do can’t turn back time
I’m sorry that i loved you
I’m sorry that i hurt you
I’m so sorry that i loved you
I’m sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i loved you

Studying

2010-12-12T02:59:00.000-08:00

Read and read and read and read...

Exam over!

~~HC 102 Introduction to Chinese Language~~

~~ADM 440 Shanghai Modern~~

~~HC 101 Introduction to the study of literature and culture~~

~~HC 201 Literature of Pre-Qin, Han, Wei and Jin~~

FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!! XDXD

A new found me

2010-12-09T02:33:00.000-08:00

Waiting for my fish and chip for dinner...=))

So I came to blog.

Seriously, something must have gone horribly wrong .

One moment, I am so emo that I think I can really die,

The next moment, I am jumping around.

-_-

I am not joking but somehow studying make me happy.

Haha.

Yes, I am nuts. In case, you never notice.

Woo~~Yea~~~Ah~~~

It might be true that you are broken,

It might be true that you have been unhappy,

It might be true that you have lie to yourself all these years,

It might be true that you cannot find yourself.

So what?

You live for the present and the future, not the past.

You said you are afraid of people to be worried about you.

But have you ever wonder,

hiding your true feelings will even make them even more worried?

And you have forgotten one very important thing.

You are kind in nature, how can you hurt people in this way?

Stop living your twisted life.

Stop being the twisted you.

From today onwards, you are who you are.

No more hiding feelings,

No more hiding thoughts.

Who said that being emo is bad?

Reflecting makes you see yourself clearer and better.

Guess what, I just found a new found me =).

无言

2010-12-07T04:26:00.000-08:00

Wordless.

I rem coming across this list of questions on FB.

如果，你发现这日志说的对，那说明你真的受伤了…

有时候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人说话，只想一个人静静的发呆。

Yes.
Just like what I am doing now.

有时候，突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，心里闷的发慌，拼命想寻找一个出口。

Yes.

Everyday.

有时候，发现身边的人都不了解自己，面对着身边的人，突然觉得说不出话。

Yes.

How can you even speak?

Do not make them worry, amee.

有时候，感觉自己与世界格格不入，曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非。

Yes.
Often. Too often that I am confused.

有时候，突然很想逃离现在的生活，想不顾一切收拾自己简单的行李去流浪。

Yes.
But where can I go?

有时候，别人突然对你说，我觉得你变了，然后自己开始百感交集。

Yes.

Hurt me so deeply that for a moment, I really nearly cry on the spot.

有时候，希望时间为自己停下，做完己还没来得及做的事情。

Yes.

But time will not stop...

有时候，想一个人躲起来脆弱，不愿别人看到自己的伤口。

Yes.

Every day, every moment, all my life.

有时候，突然很想哭，却难过的哭不出来。

Yes.
But my heart is bleeding.

有时候，夜深人静，突然觉得不是睡不着，而是固执地不想睡。

Yes.

Because I am scared that the moment I closed my eyes, everything will be gone.

有时候，走过熟悉的街角，看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一个人的脸。

Yes.

Too much memories.

有时候，明明自己心里有很多话要说，却不知道怎样表达。

Yes.

Wordless.

有时候，觉得自己拥有着整个世界，一瞬间却又觉得自己其实一无所有。

Yes.
I wonder why...

真的只是有时候，明明自己身边很多朋友，却依然觉得孤单。

Yes.

Because even your closest friend cannot see through your heart.

有时候，很想放纵自己，希望自己痛痛快快歇斯底里地发一次疯。

Yes.

And really planning to.

有时候，突然找不到自己，把自己丢的无影无踪。

Yes.

I cannot find myself long ago.

有时候，心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪，觉得自己很累很累。

Yes.

Everyday, esp when I am alone.

有时候，看不到自己未来的样子，迷茫的不知所措。

Yes.

Since the start of uni...

有时候，发现自己一夜之间长大了。

Yes.
But sometimes, I wonder...

有时候，听到一首歌，就会突然想起一个人。

Yes.

More like will suddenly feel something very strongly...

有时候，希望能找个人好好疼爱自己，渴望一种安全感。可当那个可以疼你的人出现的时候，你却偏执地退隐。

Yes.

If only...

What is this person trying to do?

Just hide, amee.

有时候，别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话，心里郁闷的发慌。

Yes.

If I have keep my mouth shut.

有时候，被别人伤害，嘴上讲没事，其实心里难过的要死。

Yes.

Can you even hear my heart dripping blood?

有时候，常常在回忆里挣扎，有很多过去无法释怀。

Yes.

Just too many memories...

有时候，很容易感动别人的关怀，有时候却麻木地像个笨蛋。

Yes.
Was nearly crying when I saw the post dot post up.

有时候，看着时间一点点流逝，任凭叹息，自己却无能为力。

Yes.
Always.

其实，有时候，真的会想这么多。。。

Yes.

Always can't stop thinking...

Looks like I am really sick.

For all my 20 years,

I have been lying...

Are you ok with this?

Ya. Sure. =)

No, I am not.

Are you really all right?

Ya, why I am not?=)

No, I am not. Save me.

Do you want to play?

No, not really.

Yes, I do.

Hey, go to work, ok?

Yep. sure. No prob. =)

No, I really need a rest.

You are too kind, amee.

Why spare a thought for others when they are hurting you badly?

Why are you worried that they will be worried when you are not all right?

Look what you have become.

Look at what you have lost.

Is all that really worth it?

You are a big idiot.

Breathe, amee.

Don't leave me alone.

丢了的自己，要记得捡回来……

A magical key

2010-11-29T05:25:00.000-08:00

This is a magical key.

It can open the door to anybody's heart.

Insert*

Click*

Door opens...

The room seemed endless.

It shifted from one colour to another in seconds.

You can see nothing at all...

Wait.

Is that another door?

Walk towards the door.

Click*

Open...

This is another room.

But it is all dark.

You can see nothing and hear nothing.

You move on...

and on...

......

And you stop.

......

Suddenly, you realise,

It is not that you cannot see and hear,

but you are just turning everything out.

The room outside moved on,

changing from one colour to another,

but...

nothing changed inside...

I am Haunted.

Why can't you stop?
Because once I stopped, I can only feel the pain...

Why can't you take a step foward?
Because I am scared...

Something is making me holding on to nothing...

Haunted.

虽然<棺材太大，洞太小> 画上一个圆满的结局,但相信这个结局，将会开发另一个重新的开始。

2010-11-19T23:09:00.000-08:00

记得昨天Serene 问我：“用一句话说一说你的想法。”
想了好久。。。

我不是善于用口语表达的人。

同时，也太多话想说了。
一时之间，根本就不可能用一句话点出我心里的想法。

记得刚开始时，也没想这么多。。。
要不要参加呢？
。。。。。。
三秒后，我已经在填表格了。

第一次这么地潇洒。

不久，排练开始了。
第一次看着演员们排戏，感到好震惊。

我看到了无限的可能。

好羡慕~~ 或许在不久的将来，我也可以凸破我自己。

喜欢当观众的自由，
喜欢当观众的轻松。
喜欢当观众的大笑，
喜欢当观众的沉默。
喜欢当观众的感觉。
喜欢观擦别的观众。
这么多的喜欢，尽在不言中。

但这一次，我将在不同的地方当一位不一样的观众。

刚开始时，感到好压力。
这么多的东西，这么短的时间，
怎么可能呢？

第一场演出之前，我僵硬了。
看不见，
听不到。
唯一可以感觉到的是一股沉重的，
压迫的一面墙，
慢慢的，
渐渐的，
压在我心上。

感觉不到自己的呼吸。

我深深地吸了一口气，
闭上了双眼。

请给我一点力量。。。

脑海里浮现着一个个加油的简讯。。。

第一场演出之前，我恢复了。
看的见，
听的到。
唯一可以感觉到的是一股强烈的，
沸腾的力量，
慢慢的，
渐渐的，
装满我的心。

感觉到了自己的呼吸。

演出非常成功。
观众的奖励更是给了我很大的鼓励。

原来，是有无限的可能的。

但还是感到惋惜。。。
因为忙着灯光，根本就没时间去好好观赏这一段演出。
相信如果是在台下，
坐在一旁，
当一位普通的观众，
应该会有不同的风味吧？

看来，我还是比较喜欢当普通的观众。

随着演出在昨天画上了一个圆满的句点，
心里难免感到一点空虚。

谢谢你给了我一个宝贵的经验。
大家也辛苦了。

但相信这个句点，将会开发另一个重新的开始。

For my two friends...=)

2010-11-02T05:20:00.000-07:00

一直以来，我都没发现。。。

原来，
我已经越过了那条线。

刚开始，我不相信，我拼命地反抗。
直到我听到他那伤感的声音，
突然，我被点醒了。

我开始思索。。。

从何时开始，我身上渐渐地长满了刺？
从何时开始，我拼了命地向前奔跑？
为何会变得如此？
我也不知道了。

这一道道的疑问，让我更加矛盾。。。
直到她对我说了一句话，
“是你。”

顿时，我愣住了。
因为其实我心里早有了答案。

不知为何，突然之间，我放下了我心里的大石。
我不在矛盾，
我不在执著。
心里特别地舒畅。

我深深地吸了一口气，
我好像很久都没这么轻松过了。。。

我开始想。。。
我到底多久没有真心地对待别人了？

亲爱的他，
谢谢你。
虽然我带你不好，你却真心地在替我担心。
对你，我感到千万的抱歉，内疚。
对不起，因为我的任性，伤害了你。

我说过，我有我的理由。
但我的做法错了。
所以，我决定坦白地把事实说出来。
因为我不想失去你。

亲爱的她，
谢谢你。
因为你也心苦着，所以我根本没办法麻烦你。
但直到最后，果然还是你让我找到了答案。

未来的路可能会很艰苦，但我们一起加油吧！

时间继续地向前走，但我仍然停在原地。。。

Nothing is perfect and life still goes on...

2010-10-18T20:15:00.001-07:00

Suppose to be studying for my upcoming exam on friday but doing anything except studying...=XX

Ah~~I want to celebrate halloween~~anybody planning? =)

Ok, done, I am going to study NOW. haha.so random. =X

Here's a nice song to share with all of you when I am gone. =)

终于可以在今天划上句点
一整夜翻阅过去画面
快想不起我们为何会诀别
只看到那双你送的鞋
走一步又一步
我才发现绕了个圈
走了好几年
又回到原点

你送的礼物会不会太特别
毫不避讳那不安的传言
但渐行渐远习惯到没感觉
难道你早想要我走远

你送的礼物在此刻好体贴
陪我回忆把过往走一遍
穿了这些年难免会有污点
就像每段爱总会有终点

世上最残酷的恐怕是时间
困住人一切却还向前
干涸的眼再挤不出一点咸
爱到如此可悲的境界
走一步又一步
却跟不上你的脚步
你满意了
为什么我却只想要哭

你送的礼物会不会太特别
毫不避讳那不安的传言
但渐行渐远习惯到没感觉
难道你早想要我走远

你送的礼物在此刻好体贴
陪我回忆把过往走一遍
穿了这些年难免会有污点
就像每段爱总会有终点

你说做自己吧
我们都做回自己
不要再为爱受委屈

你送的礼物原来是一场劫
终于分别夙命一样准确
可笑到想要你赔给我时间
爱情有时廉价得可怜

光著脚我一路奔跑
鲜血泪水一路狂飙
收起我的骄傲
承认曾经备受煎熬
鞋上那记号
只有你能明了
过了这一夜
我就全忘掉

It's tough, but just keep on moving foward. You will be fine.=) Jia you!

Amee missing a lot of fun memories...=((

Where is my happy ending?

2010-09-23T05:59:00.000-07:00

Suppose to be typing my notes and reading...but just thought I should give myself a break. =)

My sis show me this and I thought it was really sweet. XD so sharing with all of you. =)

You belong with me by Taylor Swift

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset
She's going off about something that you said
'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do

I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You, you belong with me, you belong with me

Walking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say you're fine, I know you better than that
Hey, what ya doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

Oh, I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're 'bout to cry
And I know your favorite songs and you tell me 'bout your dreams
Think I know where you belong, think I know it's with me

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time, how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me?
You belong with me.

I wonder...where is my happy ending then?

当不同的歌词变成一个故事…

2010-09-05T19:13:00.000-07:00

Please kindly take note that the song lyrics are not completed...just want to emphasis some meaning within the song. =)

你有办法聆听到这个故事吗？

第一篇：意外的惊喜

如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那是不是有一点弱

如果我说爱我没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手

有人说
世界上最遥远的距离不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你

如果我说爱没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手

如果如果
没有如果如果如果最后变路过
我们也不能接受
错过错过
可是错过错过错过我比你更难过
我不会一错再错

别怕太快了别怕失去我

如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那是不是有一点弱

如果我说爱我没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手

快牵起我的手

第二篇：或许。。。

내 앞에 너 나타난 순간 뺏겨버린 맘 멈춰버린 시간
지난 밤에 꿈에서 만난 오랫동안 찾아 헤맨 나의 천사
너무나도 가슴 떨려 말 한 마디 못 해 난 어떡해

있잖아 왠지 두근 두근 가슴이 떨려 몰라
있잖아 괜히 나를 보는 눈빛이 너무 좋아

I believe you Cause I'm in love with you

Translation：
The moment you appeared you stole my heart and mind
Last night it was hard, I realized you were the angel from my dream
I did not have the heart to say because I was so nervous

You know, Oh, my heart quivers for some reason I do not know
You know, Oh, your lovely eyes looking at me

I believe you Cause I'm in love with you

第三篇：笨蛋

All men are the same
You don’t know anything, you couldn’t even get my hints
Oh gosh, you are driving me crazy

Three, call don’t text
Four, make sure you make an eye contact when we talk
Don’t know, don’t know, don’t know, don’t know
You really don’t know my feeling

You don’t know what a girl wants
What a girl, what a girl wants

第四篇：当笨蛋遇到笨蛋。。

좋은 사람 너는 내게 첫사랑
사랑을 가르쳐준 사람
Never forget you
I remember you
기억해 너 하나만

Translation：
Good person, you're my first love
The person who taught me love
Never forget you
I remember you
I remember only you

第五篇：相信。。

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

第六篇：思念。。

Hey～我真的好想你
现在窗外面又开始下着雨
眼睛干干的有想哭的心情
不知道你现在到底在哪里

Hey～我真的好想你
太多的情绪没适当的表情
最想说的话我该从何说起
你是否也像我一样在想你
如果没有你没有过去
我不会有伤心
但是有如果还是要爱你
如果没有你我在哪里
又有什么可惜反正一切来不及
反正没了自己
Hey～我真的好想你
不知道你现在到底在哪里

你是否像我一样在想你？

第七篇：失望。。

I shouldn’t’t have done that,
I should have pretended not to know
like I didn’t see it, like I couldn’t see it
I shouldn’t have looked at you in the first place
I should have run away,
I should have pretended I wasn’t listening
like I didn’t hear it, like I couldn’t hear it
I shouldn’t have heard your love in the first place
Without a word you made me know love
Without a word you gave me love
Because you took just a breath and ran away like this
Without a word love leaves me
Without a word love abandons me
Wondering what to say next, my lips were surprised
Because it came without a word.
Why does it hurt so much?
Why does it hurt continuously?
Except for the fact that I can’t see you anymore
And that you’re not here anymore
Otherwise it’s the same as before

第八篇：伤心。。

한걸음 만큼 그댈 보내면 눈물이나
한걸음 만큼 그대가 가면 더 눈물이 흘러 와
손을 뻗어도 손내밀어도 닿을수 없는 곳으로
그대 가는데 잡지 못하고 난 울고만 있죠
어떡하죠 어떡하죠 그대가 떠나가네요
어떡하죠 어떡하죠 날두고 떠나가네요
사랑해요 사랑해요 목놓아 불러보지만
그댄 듣지 못해요 가슴으로만 외치고 있으니
하루온종일 지워보지만 또 떠올라
하루온종일 이별하지만 또 다시 떠올라
손을 뻗어도 손내밀어도 안을수 없는 곳으로
그댄 갔지만 찾지 못하고 난 울고만 있죠
어떡하죠 어떡하죠 자꾸 그대만 보여요
어떡하죠 어떡하죠 난 그댈 사랑하는데
미안해요 미안해요 내말이 들리시나요
다시 돌아와줘요 그대 아니면 난 안되니까요
어떡하죠 어떡하죠 난 오직 그대뿐인데
어떡하죠 어떡하죠 그대가 떠나가네요
어떡하죠 어떡하죠 날두고 떠나가네요
사랑해요 사랑해요 목놓아 불러보지만
그댄 듣지 못해요 가슴으로만 외치고 있으니

Translation：
When I let you go one step further, my eyes overflow with tears
When you walk away one step further, more tears are falling
As you move away to a place where I can’t reach you, even if I reach out my hand
I can’t catch you, I can only cry
What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving
What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving me
I love you, I love you, I cry out to you
But you can’t hear me, because I am only shouting in my heart
All day long I try to forget you, but I think of you again
All day long I try to say goodbye, but I think of you
Although you went to a place where I can’t hold you, even if my hand reaches out for you
I can’t find you, I can only cry
What should I do? What should I do? I can only see you
What should I do? What should I do? I love you only
I am sorry, I am sorry, can you hear me?
Please come back to me, if it’s not you, I can’t go on
What should I do? What should I do? I only have you
What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving
What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving me alone
I love you, I love you, I cry out to you
But you can’t hear me because I am only shouting in my heart

第九篇：只想守护。。。

If I were to go
If I were to get close to you
What would you think?
I don’t have the courage.

If you were to go,
If you were to leave.
I don’t know how to send you away
It keeps hanging on my mind

I know I am a fool and can only watch you from afar
Your heart may look away from me…
And so we could even become strangers

What would I do?
I really don’t know
Because I’m like a fool.
Even though I know looking is all I can do

第十篇：领悟。。。

As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on
The days drag on
Stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you
And your white horse, to come around

I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
Now I know

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you
And your white horse, to come around

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now
And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late
To catch me now

第十一篇：当憎恨与伤痕同时并存。。。

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake,
think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
you thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
and you don't understand, ohhhh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

But you're just a boy

You Don’t Know Me, You Don’t Know Me.
You Don’t Know Me, You Don’t Know Me, So, Shut Up, Boy.
So, Shut Up, Boy.
So, Shut Up, Shut Up.

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not

All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible

第十二篇：算了，了了，放了。。。

算了。。

徘了徊了走了错了过了等了
累了倦了困了烦了乱的冷的
都是真的
疯了想了念了慌乱的焦虑的
复杂的梦过的拥有的失去的
怎么忘呢

我的你的他的好的坏的难的
灰的蓝的黄的酸的甜的苦的
都还记得

非常想要忘的绝对不能忘的
我想要换你了真的不想要了
只得放了
环岛的火车载着我第几天了
忽然发现这一刻我不想你了
我的快乐
会回来的
只要清楚曾爱得那么深刻
不准问值不值得
我的快乐
会回来的

疯了想了念了慌乱的焦虑的
复杂的梦过的拥有的失去的
怎么忘呢
非常想要忘的绝对不能忘的
我想要换你了真的不想要了
只得放了
放了

忘了

了了。。

后来我总算学会了如何去爱
可惜你早已远去消失在人海
后来终于在眼泪中明白
有些人一旦错过就不再
桅子花白花瓣落在我蓝色百褶裙上
「爱你」你轻声说
我低下头闻见一阵芬芳
那个永恒的夜晚十七岁仲夏你吻我的那个夜晚
让我往后的时光每当有感叹
总想起当天的星光
那时候的爱情为什么就能那样简单
而又是为什么人年少时
一定要让深爱的人受伤
在这相似的深夜里你是否一样也在静静追悔感伤
如果当时我们能不那么倔强
现在也不那么遗憾
你都如何回忆我带着笑或是很沉默
这些年来有没有人能让你不寂寞
永远不会再重来
有一个男孩爱着那个女孩

放了。。

你走了太久一定很累
他错了不该你来面对
离开他就好就算了心情很干脆

他其实没有那么绝对
远一点你就看出真伪
离开他不等于你的世界会崩溃
转个弯你还能飞

就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉

每段感情都非常珍贵
他的好你就放在心扉
记得有个人曾让你那样的心醉

你笑了照亮夜幕的黑
什么梦都不比你的美
多少年以后想起他还有些体会
那些你已无所谓

XD

When you live your life to the fullest!

2010-08-10T05:12:00.001-07:00

I am back! Alive and kicking with some pictures! Woo~~

Totally enjoy the crazy saturday night where I have like plan for weeks...
Crazy...just keep on changing and changing...
And just imagine working everyday and coming back to do the video for two weeks...
Then weekend packed wih outings for present hunting and shopping...
How to finish the video like this!?
But I did! XDXD

Anyway, can catch the video on facebook. I have uploaded it. XD

And the birthday plan was a TOTAL SUCCESS~~ WOO~~~ XDXD

So fun and full of nice pic and I get to try out kite flying!!! So FUN!!! XDXD Should go again. XD The best? Other than all the birthday celebration, kite flying, retarded stuff that birthday babies will have to do, we saw nice FIREWORKS~~~ WOO~~ XDXD

FUN, FUN, FUN!! XD

And went to sing K till morning~~ WOO~~ XDXD
Then sleep for 4 hours and went out with my family. LOL.
Maybe I can understand why pak always never get to sleep for days. =X
And I want to have MORE FUN!! Anybody care to join me? XDXD

P.s.: I must be insane but nvm, just enjoy and have FUN before school starts! Woo~~ XD

Interesting convo that my family have. XD

Ah yun: "Do you know that pigs lay eggs??"
Ah Ling: "Really?How do they look like?"
Ah yun and me trying very hard not to laugh.*

Ah yun: "And do you know that whale lay eggs?"
Ah Ling: "Ya, I know whale lay eggs."

Ah yun and me rolling on the floor laughing like hell*

OMG, can you believe that??? MY ELDER SIS BELIEVES THAT PIG LAY EGGS AND WHALE LAY EGGS?!

I wonder how she pass her science....=X

Most classic...

Ah yun :"Mum, do you know that whale lay eggs?"
My mum :" Ya, I know. why?"
My dad rolling his eyes and said "WHALE GIVES BIRTH!!!"

LOL.

Now, you know where the gene came from. 有其母必有其女。 =X

Tatas~~ XD

A short and random post

2010-07-16T05:43:00.000-07:00

Oh my...it seems like AGES since I have blog....

Actually, I wanted to post up some pictures but...well, I am too lazy to do that. Haha. =X
So I guess all of you will have to bear with all the words~~
Wahahhaa~~ =X

Huh...let's see what's up later...

Went ice skating with AOL gang...and as usual I am the last one to learn how to skate...
well, you can't blame me...I am BAD at sports. =XX
Nvm, with more practice, I should be fine, I think? =X

Thank you, grandfather gerry for bearing with me and teaching me how to skate XD
Thank you Pak for making me fall TWICE...ok, I know you are trying to help. XD but seriously,
you might not know this but I always feel like falling whenever I see you skating. LOL. Just try asking gerry. =XXX
Thank mau for giving me advice on skating XD
Most importantly, thank you all of you for bearing this slow learner. haha. XD

Just when you think everything was over...
No, went to sing K with KC, pearlyn and pak right after skating. LOL.
Been singing a lot lately...with dot too.
Now, I just left with singing with jus, chia ling, sherlene and evie~~ XDXD

And...the next day, went shopping with KC, karen, gerry and aik at vivo...
sad to say, once again, I found nothing....haiz..
nvm, going shopping with yc this sun~~ XDXD

as for my weekdays...
basically just work then go home then work?
haha.
sorry, but working life is normally not interesting at all. =X
And seriously I do wonder...
When I am working in science center...
I stand all the time but I am fine with having one meal.
But now, I sit all day long but I like eat 5 meals a day!?
LOL.
Breakfast, teabreak,lunch,teabreak,dinner XD
and sometimes after dinner, fruits, snacks XDXD
Yet, I don't gain weight at all. =XX
So many people are like going to kill me. haha. =XX

Wa...I really crap a lot. haha. In the end, not a 'short' post. Oh my...=X

rotting away~~~ XD

2010-07-07T06:43:00.000-07:00

Back! XD

Ah...I want to shop~~ badly. Haha. =XX
Have been like rotting at home for DAYS.
And will be working from next mon onwards...
Well, I can't complain since I only work 5 days and so I will have my weekend off. XD
So who's up for shopping? XD

Haiz...but going to miss working with pearlyn at science centre.
The people there were really nice too. =)

And will miss the outings with pearlyn too~~
LOL. I am talking as if we will not be able to meet up at all. =X
But well, I did manage to get mummy to drive me to her house, doll up before going out. XD
My comments?

Ok, her house is like two houses connected to one another...
Then I was told that her room was actually suppose to be a kitchen!?-_-

And always rem the super high heels she gave me to try on...
wa...killer...
I wonder how she walks in that like TOTALLY...

Here's some pictures we took that day...

On your left, you have the nice picture whereby Mummy insists that she is a natural photographer...=X so I thought I showcase it XD
On your right, you have pearlyn and me.

Huh...Pearlyn, we might not be working together anymore but let's all keep in touch, ok?

(Actually, we are currently planning for an outing this coming sat already...LOL. =X)

And seriosuly, what's with the title of the album??

How is it link to protecting Earth?

Oh my~~faint*

P.s.: At first glance at the words, I thought it sounds as if I am died or something...=XXX

Touch wood*

A short post to kill my time...=X

2010-06-30T22:27:00.000-07:00

Huh...not really here to update what I have been doing...maybe a while later? =X

Just here to blog while waiting for my show at 2.30pm...Haha. =X

Just in case you are wondering, I am jobless again. =X
Haiz...but I guess something can't go smoothly all the way.
At least I did managed to earn a bit of money and I am still looking for another job.
But with only like 1 and a half month left...
Bet you are thinking why not two months...
well, I was planning to rest before school starts you see.=XX

But let's just say this time, I feel more at ease since you can't say I never work...=X
Let's just hope this feeling lasts.

Have been thinking a lot this holidays.
Let's just say it might not be the best holidays but at least I get to know a few more things about myself. =)

Lesson number 1:
Don't always live for others. You will only make yourself upset. Think of yourself sometimes.

Lesson number 2:
Nothing is impossible. You just have to take a step forward.

Lesson number 3:
If you want to embrace the future, the only way is to let go of your past.

Will be back. XD

contented XD

2010-06-18T06:15:00.000-07:00

Seriously, sometimes I really wonder what I am doing...

First, cut myself with paper like again...then got hit by the turnstile till my hands have red marks...then tried to help my mum to take in the clothes...and only realise that my sis have already taken in the clothes and the one I am keeping are the one she just washed...totally well done. Must be because I am dying of hunger. =X

And the worst thing of the day?

THE 3D TOY STORY MOVIE 2 IS DOWN!

When I am like looking forward to watch it...

When I am like prepared and even take the trouble to bring my stuff to do while I wait for pearlyn...

-_-

Nvm, we will watch the 7pm show next thurs then. XD

Don't break down, ok~~

Ok, let's get back to a more happy note. XD

Went 'dating' with mummy~~

So fun~~ although I was like late...=X

But still, it was fun~~especially for mummy when she like buy so many stuff and me, I saw NOTHING I like...can you believe it?! Oh my...maybe I am more picky than I thought. =X

Oh, oh, you all should totally try out the food there at somerset. NICE!!XD As for what is the shop...maybe I bring you there? Can't rem the name. =XX

Let's go out again, ok? Mummy~~ XD

Ending off with...

Wishes from 3 princess and our queen of our house to...

my lovely daddy~~

Might be early but...

Happy Father's day!!! XDXDXD

Can't wait to meet dot tmr~~ XDXD

Passing crazy days with happiness

2010-05-24T19:31:00.000-07:00

I am back! XD

Jus, now you will not only see the pic already since I have updated my blog. =X

Was randomly bluetoothing pictures from my handphone when I come across this pic...

Dotdot, chia ling, do you still rem this? Haha. The days we spend to do our IEP? Strangely, it feels like it has been ages away.Really miss doing assignments...=X I must be mad. Haha. =X

Then I found this, the extra super LARGE bowl of ramen that I have eaten when I went out with a dinner outing with my AOL gang. Huh...it don't look big in the pic but actually it is like bigger than my face? haha. XD

And the following two pictures are for gerry, aik nen and KC who I did not managed to pass the cupcake to...sorry, but the cupcake will not last that long so...=X anyway, it's chocolate cupcakes with nice sweet chocolate icing. XD Just imagine how it tastes like ok? If there is another time, I will bake and pass to you all again. XD Anyway, you will still get the cards. XD

And thanks, jojo for letting me to go to your house to bake and teaching me how to bake. XD Let's make more cupcakes together next time? Get dot dot and chia ling to join too. XD

Or perhaps anybody want to get me an oven, cupcakes cookbook and all those baking equipments? =X Then I will be able to bake anytime when I am at home~~XD

These few days have been really crazy...I was like going out everyday after work...wa...but really enjoyed all of them. XD

Concert, bbq and last minute K until my sore throat is back, oh my...wait did I even recover in the first place? LOL. =X

Thank you all of you for making my life so colourful. XD Let's meet up again soon, ok??

And...

We have finally grad! XD

Going to miss my poly school life badly...=(

All the best to all of you, let's jia you together and keep in touch, ok? XD

she is there...

2010-05-12T01:43:00.001-07:00

Enjoying my last day of freedom...

Will be working in science center from tmr onwards with pearlyn.XD

Wish me luck!

And hope that I will not be voiceless tmr.=X

Till then.

For a few seconds, I saw and felt her.

She is there.

Amee, she is really there...=)

Love this song...XD

If by Taeyeon

If I were to go
If I were to get close to you
What would you think?
I don't have the courage.
If you were to go,
If you were to leave.
I don't know how to send you away

It keeps hanging on my mind
I know i am a fool and can only watch you from afar
Your heart may look away from me...
And so we could even become strangers
Just like a fool i can't even say that i love you because ...
We're afraid the wait that comes upon us
After we meet will be painful and sad.

If you were to come
To come near me.
What would i do ?
I really don't know
Because im like a fool.
Even though i know looking is all i can do
Your heart may look away from me

And so we could even become strangers
Just like a fool i can't even say that i love you because....
We're afraid the wait that comes upon us
After we meet will be painful and sad
Because i'm like a fool
Even though i can't say i love you
We're afraid the wait that comes upon us
After we meet will be painful and sad.

Retrack to the past...

2010-05-08T23:31:00.000-07:00

It is not that she cannot find herself,
It is not that she cannot recognise herself,
It is just that she is tired of being who she hopes to be,
It is just that she have gone back to who she used to be.

If Amy is gone, there will always be Fang Hou.
If Fang Hou is gone, there will always be Amy.
She just have to strike a balance between both of them...
And hopefully, Amee will be born.

如何让你遇见我，
在这最美丽的时刻，
为着。。。
我已在佛前求了500年，
求他让我们结一段尘缘。
佛于是把我化作一棵树，
长在你必经的路旁。
阳光下，
慎重的，开满了花。
朵朵都是我前世的盼望。。。
当你走进，请你细听，
那颤抖的叶是我等待的热情。
而当你终于无视的走过，
在你身后落了一地的。。。
朋友啊，那不是花瓣，
是我凋零的心。。。

I have found it...

2010-05-03T22:24:00.000-07:00

If you are lost, the best way to recover is to retrack your steps...

And she embarks on a journey by starting with something simple...

And she realises she is the most happiest when she is making cards for others...

Might be a bit early but

Mummy, Happy Mother's day XD

Aftermath:

If logic is stopping you from moving forward then let insanity takes over.

And I might be back to retail.

Well, I am abnormal in the first place. =X

Till June.

a new start

2010-05-02T06:06:00.000-07:00

And...

I AM FREE!! XD

Haha. Finally get to enjoy my weekends!! XD
Although it's really hot these few days but really miss all these family times. XD
And going for an interview tmr...wish me luck! Keep my fingers crossed*=)

Just a random thought...
Kids are really spolit these days...
(although I am one myself but...=X)

Why?

Auntie A: "Huh...I have to get 5 different colour combs for my son. He said he want to carry a different comb everyday...and yesterday I bought a comb for him but he said that's not what he wanted so have to get another one for him today..."

Auntie B: "WHAT!?"

Auntie A: "Never mind, as long as he is happy."

Morale of the story: Spolit child, NOBLE MUM.

And you know what is the most ironic? The guy is entering army soon...I wonder why he needs so many comb for then? Wouldn't he be like bald?? =XX

serious, -_-

The moment she decided to change,
She had been running non-stop...
She met a lot of people,
and experienced a lot that she have not experienced before...

All along, she thought that she have make the right choice,
but as times go by...
When she finally stopped and rest,
she realised...
could everything have been wrong all along?

It seems that everything that she have work for...
has disappeared into thin air...

All of a sudden, she felt lost.
It is as if all along, everything never cease to exist at all...

She started wondering just what she really wants,
but no answer comes to her...

Then, she realises as much as she gains,
she also lost something very important...
yet she has no idea what it is...

Don't live for others, live for yourself

2010-04-27T00:07:00.000-07:00

Off today and leaving my job in 3 days' time...=X

Why?

Because I realise it's no use living for others. Live for yourself. If not, you will end up pretty miserable.

Although sometimes I do wonder am I making the correct decision...but you never know without trying right?

Let's just hope I will find another job soon. Keep my fingers crossed*=X

Lazy day...seriously I need some sparks in my life. ..I wonder how I am going to achieve that...
Huh...

Have been thinking what I really do want...then I realise I do not know and feel really insecure not knowing what to do...

So I am only left with one choice, just keep on trying and soon I will get my answer. I hope.

Conclusion? No point worrying about it now. Just go on! XD

Do not lose hope because you deserve much more better. Jia you! XD

day off! XD

2010-04-19T21:05:00.000-07:00

It's finally my day off!!! YEA!!!

And I am slacking at home. LOL.
Seriously, I must make sure that next time when I do really go out to the society to work, I find a job that only requires me to work 5 weekdays ot at most 5 weekdays and a half weekend.
If not, I will have totally NO LIFE.=X

Let's just say this job I can live on with it...
except the fact that I do miss a lot of things badly...
So let's hope I do get another job...
but LOL.
I will still have to work 6 days for the other job and monday off...=X
But at least it is more well-paid and pearlyn is there!!! XD

Mummy, let's keep our fingers crossed! XD
Then can have lunch together and shop together. XDXD

Here's some interesting observations...

The difference between how a guy shops and a girl shops...

Guy walks into the shop. Immediately ask the sale assistant where to locate his item, takes it, pay and leave. At most just walk around the shop fast and once he locates his item, pay for it and go out.

Girl walks into the shop. Move slowly and looks at everything...then will either end up buying or not buying at all.

One thing is for sure, while guys can take like a few seconds to shop, girls at least take 5 minutes.

But this logic basically does not apply to KC...=XXX

Something interesting happen yesterday...

An old Indian lady came in. And she stayed like almost an hour in the shop...oh my...why?
Here's one small part of what happen...

Lady: "Banglet?"

Me: Bring her to the section where all banglets are located.

Lady: Looks at it for 3 minutes...take out a blue banglet with some flower design...Started speaking to me in India...

Me: ????

Lady: Point to both of her hands*

Me: Oh, Realise that she wants one banglet with the same design on each of her hands. Started searching for it...but that design only have one...

Lady looked around again....

Started speaking in India...

Me: HUH??? but manage to catch the word 'green'. So assume she wants green banglet. Started to search for two green banglet of the same design...Managed to find it and pass to her.

Lady started speaking in India again...

Me: ????? Seriously, I don't understand at all!!!

Lady seeing I looked lost, place one of the banglet in my hand and said 'Black, white.'.

Hence, I tried to find black and white banglets for her but she did not want it...

Oh my...seriously, I don't get what she wants!!!

Lady: "Pink?"

I started searching for pink banglet of the same design for her...then pass to her...

She looked at it...
asked her husband to come in to see and her husband seemed to be really frustrated that she was taking such a long time,
walked out of the shop...

Lady: "Green?"

Once again, I assume she don't like the current green banglet design so started searching for another green banglet design.
Found one and pass it to her.

She FINALLY smiled and kept on saying 'Thank you' to me.

Well, seems as if she finally like it.

Phew.

LOL. That's really what you DO when you don't get her. But luckily managed to find what she wants. XD

First day of work

2010-04-14T07:40:00.000-07:00

First day of work!

Was so nervous today...
anyway, this was not the job I went for interview...
but just some random job I took just because I am SICK AND TIRED of my family members telling me to work like EVERYDAY?!

So end up getting a underpaid job...
8 hours per day...
working 6 days (and my day off will be on weekdays...bye bye, weekend...)
At least it's near my house...

so today I can leave my house at like 1.30pm? and still be early for work.Haha.

Start at 2 and end at 10pm...
what did I do?

Stone, stare, stone, stare, answer customer queries, stone, stare, stone, stare, tried to arrange the stuff but it was too neat...diao...stone, stare, listen to 'sorry, sorry' like 20 times and 'nobody, nobody but you' like 20 times?

serious why the shop don't have like OTHER SONGS? (anyway, it's not our shop but the shop across us.)

then half an hour dinner...where I just eat bread and go toilet then go back? Diao...

back to stone, stare, stone, stare.

WA...it's really boring...I have to like totally entertain myself.

And I have a feeling the head don't really like me...=X so is it just me?
we will see how it goes by the end of 3 days...
why? because currently I am still on 'training' or what you call the 'trial'.
So if I fail it, NO PAY AT ALL.
Diao...diao...diao...

Nvm, if that really happen, then I just take it as an experience and pretend I am doing volunteering work then. =X

But a few interesting happen today. XD (my self -entertainment=X)

Was shocked to know from the stuff that some of them STEALS. OMG. so must keep an eye on them.
A guy ask me "Is it a anklet?" Seriously, I have no idea at all. Can't see the difference but totally manage to get back at him. Why? Because I saw the work 'anklet' printed like on the label? LOL. =X and he thought that he asked a stupid question and said sorry to me. LOL. He has no idea I don't know but was saved by the label. =X
A lady wanted to see how the scarf will look like (those malay kind, wrap around the head) so she wrapped it around MY head. Haha.
Managed to point out the right places of where to find the things at the end of the day. Phew.
Managed to help an auntie find nice hair clip. Seriously, my eyes go dizzy seeing them. SO MANY!!
A cute child kept on smiling at me when she came in. So cute!! XD
The most classic of the day:

A sec school girl: "Sorry, do you have black earsticks?"

Me: "Erm...I help you look for it."Search for it. cannot find it."Don't have."

A sec school girl: "Never mind. Erm...then how about this? Do you cut this yrself for the ear stick?" Show me a packet of bracelet string.

Me: Shocked. "Erm, that's not for ears. It's bracelet string?"

OMG. I was like trying very hard not to laugh.=X

Let's see what will happen tmr then. XD

Just for you

2010-03-28T06:21:00.000-07:00

As the 3 years of my poly life soon coming to an end,

I will like to dedicate this post to all my wonderful poly mates.

My wonderful clique XD

Really thank you for making my years in poly a very meaningful and fruitful one.

Seriously, at first, I really thought I would be unable to blend in at all.

But now, I am really glad I did because I managed to know a really great group of friends. =)

You might not believe it but I really learnt a lot from all of you.

Because of all of you, I have become a much more confidence person who dare to voice out my own opinions.

I will really miss all the good times we spent together,

Especially all the last minute work,

(Although I do admit, I don’t really like doing it but with all of you, I felt really fine. Wait, is that a good thing? Oh no~~=X)

And not forgetting all the crazy assignments (aka my previous bf=X)…

(I think all of you do not need me to elaborate further…Haha. =X)

Oh, how can I forget our clique trademark? Waiting for ALL OF YOU…=X

(I swear if I really start charging all of you for being late, I will be like rich now? =X)

Let’s keep this precious friendship, ok? Can always meet up again anytime~~ XD

Hinting Wei Han to plan outing* =X (And don’t you dare to abandon all of them to me again!)

Don’t be LATE~~ =X

If you all need any help, I will be here for all of you, ok? XD Keep in touch!

Yr ‘leader’ signing off,
Fang Hou aka Amy

P.s.: I bet Sherlene and Jus are anticipating I saying ‘I Love you~~” but too bad that is NOT going to happen. =X Wahahaha~~ =X

P.s.s.: Oh, GOH WEI HAN. I just rem…HOW DARE YOU THROW THE SPONGE FOR YOUR IPOD HOLDER INTO MY BAG!!!!!!!!!!!! (Keep on forgetting to KILL you…=X)

My fellow Bee oh 2 XD

I am really glad that I am part of this wonderful class! XD

Really love all the time we spend together….be it chalet, orietz-t, dance etc…

The class have really left me a lot of enjoyable memories that will stay close to my heart. =)

Always remember this, ok?

EACH OF YOU SHINES BEAUTIFULLY IN YOUR VERY OWN WAY. XD

So let’s all Jia you and not forgetting to keep in touch!

(Let’s have another chalet next year~~XD)

All the best to all of my fellow Bee oh 2~~

Yr Bee oh 2 classmate signing off,
Fang Hou Aka Amy

AOL friends

Really, you people are the craziest gang of friends I ever have. Haha. =X

But in a good way, of course. XD

Let’s just say although at times, I did not really seem to like to join all of you in all the crazy ideas that you have, but I do really enjoy it .XD

In fact, let’s say it is really a honour for me to be part of this family.

Seriously, I don’t think I deserve this so I always tried very hard to treasure this special friendship.

Thank all of you for always being able to make me laugh till I cry,

Thank all of you for teaching me a lot of things that I might not have known,

(You will be really amazed at how much I learnt from all of you. =X)

Thank all of you for all the help and care when I needed them…

I really hope that all this madness will continue forever. =)

Let’s meet up soon, ok? XD Miss all the madness. Haha. =X

Yr Sotong signing off,
Amee

Other CCA friends

First of all, I am really sorry about this but this list is too long so I will not be able to list down all of you…so I am keeping it general, ok?

Thank you for being part of my fruitful and memorable poly life.

I am really sorry to say that I have not been a really good friend to all of you but I am really glad that at least I get to know all of you.

I hope that as poly life comes to an end, everything sad and bad will be forgotten and forgiven.

Most importantly, the good memories we have spent together will stay in all our hearts.

All the best to all of you and may your wishes come true.

Yr friend signing off,
Amy

Teachers
Are you surprised that I have specially dedicated one section of my blog post to my dear teachers?

Don’t be, because they are really a group of wonderful teachers. XD

If any of my teachers are reading this,

Thank all of you for your kind guidance and understanding.

Thank all of you for taking the extra effort to reply all my questions.

(Seriously, you have no idea how much I spam my teachers with tons and tons of questions…=X)
All of you say that we make a difference to children’s life,

Do you know that YOU make a difference to our life too? =)

Take care, my wonderful teachers.

I will miss all of you. =)

Yr student,
Fang Hou Aka Amy

It might be coming to an end,
Soon, a new page will start…
But all of you will stay deep in my heart.

Farewell, poly...welcome, uni! XD

2010-03-22T06:14:00.000-07:00

Was sitting alone at NP bus stop waiting for dot today...
It seems so unreal...

It seems as if it is only yesterday I came to buy my first laptop.
Went to school on the first day, arriving half an hour earlier...
Chionging from lessons, assignments, cca to jap lessons...
Having a really hard time adapting,
Got really close to a few friends who pull me through the very hard times...
Slowly adapting...
My first performance...
Get to know a branch of crazy friends that I can't live without now...
Broken friendships...
Fall time after time and pick myself up...
Camps, camps and a lot of camps...
Assignments, assignments and tons of assignments...

Then, it's ending...
It just feel... so unreal...

Farewell, my poly life.
It had been a very fruitful experience.
Bad memories,
good memories,
everyday, everything were a good life experiences for me.

I am really glad I told myself to change when I entered poly.
Although I fell a lot, I am able to pick myself up much better and faster now.

I hate to admit but I am growing up.
Good bye, little Amy.

Hello, world!
Hello, Uni! (If I get in)
Welcome to my world.
Let's just hope it will just be as fruitful as my poly life.
I will try hard and play hard.
So, let's become good friends ok? XD
Oh, don't forget helping my friends source for their potential bf. Haha. =X
And get to know more CRAZY friends!! XDXD

Amee ending off with a song she fell in love with....

When I let you go one step further, my eyes overflow with tears
When you walk away one step further, more tears are falling
As you move away to a place where I cant reach you, even if I reach out my hand
I cant catch you, I can only cry

What should I do? What should I do? You're leaving
What should I do? What should I do? You're leaving me
I love you, I love you, I cry out to you
But you cant hear me, because I am only shouting in my heart

All day long I try to forget you, but I think of you again
All day long I try to say goodbye, but I think of you
Although you went to a place where I cant hold you, even if my hand reaches out for you
I cant find you, I can only cry

What should I do? What should I do? You're leaving
What should I do? What should I do? You're leaving me
I love you, I love you, I cry out to you

But you cant hear me, because I am only shouting in my heart
What should I do? What should I do? I only have you
What should I do? What should I do? Youre leaving
What should I do? What should I do? Youre leaving me alone
I love you, I love you, I cry out to you
But you cant hear me because I am only shouting in my heart

crazy girl.=X

2010-03-14T19:50:00.000-07:00

Good morning, world~~~XD
Horribe night but beautiful morning!XD
And I am back to my lazy days. =X

Ok, maybe not because prom is coming! XD
Really excited about that but it seems like I am like the only one...LOL. =XX

Went to NUS and NTU openhouse with dot on sat.
Wa...really crazy...
Glad to have dot with me. She asked all the questions I want to know so I don't even have to like say anything at all? LOL. =XX

But then once again, make me even more confused which one to choose...but well, we still have A LOT of time to think so no worries at all. XD

Then on sun, went cycling with gerry, pak and pearlyn. Mau join us later too.XD
LOL. super last minute outing...
But I did get my wish to cycle~~XD
However, I think I will ban it for a while.
Keep on getting hurt while I am cycling...diao...
Totally well done.=X

Horrible night yesterday...
but you know what?
I am really glad I am much more stronger that I thought.
AMAZING, in fact. XD
Really insane...
And really the truth I SWEAR
from the bottom of my heart,
I AM FINE.
So can you all like stop asking me if I am all right?Diao...
Are you like expecting something or looking down on me?
If you are then, sorry, you will be DISAPPOINTED.

I am really really much more stronger that all of you think.
Serious.

Amy, who are you?
I cannot even recognise you anymore.
Crazy girl. =X

Prom preparation...XD

2010-03-12T05:45:00.000-08:00

Ok, people...

We need to start preparing for prom!!!
It's like only two weeks away and we have DONE NOTHING.
Well done. =X

So here's some research I have done...

Evie and I have went to racky far east. They have prom dress shops at cheap rate but erm...I don't really see anything I like so...out? =X

Then wisma have this super high class prom shop then only sell and cannot rent prom dress...but the dresses look SUPER NICE. Maybe can go there and see? But be prepared that it will be like very ex...=X

One of my friend suggested somerset 303...

Dot suggested forever 21, Miss Selfridge and some dunno what shop 'Berskha' or sth.

I found two more shops too...
one of them is some wedding shop but I like the bridemaids dresses they have...=XX but have to make appointment with them if you all want to go try...here's the website...

www.dream199.blogspot.com

Then the other one is this...super ex once again but I thought if you want to rent, this can be a good choice?

www.i-dazzle.com

That's all for now. The rest of you have any idea?? XD

WAITING

2010-03-11T20:14:00.000-08:00

I HATE WAITING.

Have been doing a lot of this this few weeks...
and now, I have to wait AGAIN.

Haiz...=(

Hopefully, I will be able to get the job. If they only don't make such a big deal about my medical condition...I can get the job!!

Working with children and planned activities for them. Sound fun right?? XDXD And I will be able to secure this job for a year~~If I get into uni, then maybe work on weekends too. Anyway, it's on shift. So should be ok. XD

Praying hard...

Many thanks XD

2010-03-01T05:01:00.000-08:00

SUPER BORED so I am back with another post!

But this time with words. LOL.

And of course some picures. XD

Thanks, dot dot for her blue rose~~ so sweet of you. XD
Who say being single is not good? =X

Notice anything strange about this photo??
....
....
....

Yes, if you do rem...our teacher Elizabeth was cut off...=X
Shh...don't tell her. =XX

My beloved flower with bear...

In both 2D and 3D version...XD

Thanks all of you for the card! Love it~~ XDXDXD

Will be back with another post. Haha. XD

P.s.: Really super hot these few days...everybody take care ok? XD

My chinese new year 2010

2010-02-28T05:08:00.000-08:00

My Chinese new year 2010!!! Let all the pictures tell you the story then! XD

Spring cleaning!!

2010-02-07T04:57:00.000-08:00

It's HOLIDAYS!!!

And...

The first thing I did was not to play computer games,
watch my anime or korean show...
or even read manga..
and sleep
but...
to

SPRING CLEAN!!! XD

LOL. You must think I am mad.

But I have been DYING to clean up...just can't stand all the mess. =X

So within one day, I managed to spring clean quite a few things~~ XD So happy~~

Before...

My 'teaching' materials...

After...XD

And I sort out the stuff to recycle~~ XDXD

My table before cleaning...

And I spent like 4 HOURS just cleaning my table...

Wonder why I took so LONG?

Just try cleaning all these until sparkling clean...

Doing all these small, small DIY stuff to keep my stuff...

Putting all these back in order...

Are they SPARKLING CLEAN NOW???? XDXDXD

And of course, I DIY and make a simple, nice 'vase' for my flower with bear~~~ XDXD

The flower with bear will be my bf for now~~ haha. XDXDXD

Managed to hang up my birthday card~~ XD

After 4 hours of cleaning...

After...

XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDDDDDDDDDXDXDXDXDD

Think I am done? NO~~~ Need to clean up my notes too~~~

Amee is back to spring cleaning~~~ XD

P.s.: I bet I am the only one so happy to spring clean. LOL. =X

my birthday 2010 XD

2010-02-03T05:52:00.000-08:00

Here's to update about my birthday~~ XDXD

Amy's 20th birthday! XD

Oh no, I don't want to be so old...Sob sob...=(

Will kill whoever start the thing about being '2*' again~~

Anyway, super random but love this pic XD
Special thanks to pearlyn~~
Yes, you do have hidden talent. Haha. XD

Special thanks to AOL friends, Pearlyn, KC, Melise, Grace, Gerry, Pak, Mau and aik (who is not there) XD

Although the 'cake' was quite screw up...=X

Although the plan was quite screw up...=X

Still, it was a good celebration~~~ XD

We still have good food~~XD

We still have a lot of fun~~XD

Playing with cameras,

Taking good and nice photos,

Playing games (KC, just try to kill me again? ROAR~~~)

And I have my presents~~~~ XDXDXD

Nice, warm, warm jacket to save me from OB lectures~~XD

Nice, cute, cute card~~XD

although the CREATOR OF THE CARD PLAYED A PRANK ON ME...

(which I do not believe...you failed la~~Haha. =X)

I shall forgive you based on the fact that you take effort to do the card~~ =X

Now, you know how HARD it is to create a card EVERYTIME?

Don't you dare call yourself a master!

I am the REAL master here~~ XD Wahahahaha~~

AND...

My birthday celebration did not end here~~

Went to run for my lunch on my birthday~~

And ended up being SUPER LATE
Missed a step and fall...luckily never hurt myself...=X
So never walk or anything...
Just stay and help out with the balloons. LOL.

Thanks chia ling for making me a NICE heart- shaped balloon although it burst in the end...=X
RIP, my blue heart-shaped balloon.
Thanks people for singing me a birthday song like thrice in one day...especially sherelene. Haha.XD

Most importanly, thanks to my WONDERFUL clique who celebrated my birthday~~XDXD
Was really not expecting it as we were all like rushing for our IEP...
Ok, maybe did knew something was up...

Cause dot in one of her messages she told me to 'be excited' days before. Haha. =X
But really was not expecting you all to celebrate my birthday on the actual day itself until
jus went "Why dot mes me? " when dot was like next to me. LOL.

Dot and jus...u two totally cannot make it. LOL. =X

My presents~~ XD

Oh~~ I should like totally describe the whole process~~Haha. XDXD

They made me walk up THE STEPS to get the presents and down again.
Then the wrapper was like bear wrapper. SO cute~~XD
I did not want to spolit it so slowly tear and inside was...

THIS!!!!
A big, nice, nice bag excluding the bear (I added that myself. Haha. =X)

And I was planning to open the bag and see how it looked like inside...

Open the zip*
SCREAM!!! SHOUT!!! SHRIEK!!!

FLOWER WITH BEAR!!!!!!!!!! FLOWER WITH BEAR!!!!!!!! FLOWER WITH BEAR!!!!!!!!!!
XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDDD

LOL. XD

This is the flower with bear~~ XDXD so cute right???????????????????

And that's still not the end. XD
Went out with my family to bedok to eat~~ XDXD

Thanks Pak for the introduction of the nice food there! XD
And sorry to keep bothering you with so much questions the day before. =X

P.s.: You failed la...I don't get the map at all...Prefer my sis's drawings~~=X

Went home and here's my birthday cake~~ XD Nice right???

Did not want a chocolate cake because I KNEW all of you will be getting me a chocolate cake. Haha. XD

Still, it was a nice fruit cake~~ XD

I think this post is long enough? LOL.

Thanks, everyone!! XD

Oh, Oh, nearly forget to mention...

THANKS ALL OF YO FOR THE WISHES ON FACEBOOK~~ XDXD

Amee will be back with more blogs now that she is FREE~~~~ XD

My saturday...

2010-01-16T06:52:00.000-08:00

It's FINALLY saturday and I am doing our AMPYC assignment at bugis...

Wa...really sad...

HOWEVER, on the way to the toilet and taking a break...

saw this REALLY CUTE FLOWERS WITH BEAR!!!

Anybody with boyfriend?? Should totally tell your boyfriend to get you that!!!

Why?

Because bear + flowers = CUTE!!!!! LOL. =X

Anyway, after a few hours chionging our assignment...

Decided to play sabotage. XD

I thought having Pearlyn blocking every path we build was bad enough...
Or having being block at the last minute was bad enough...
but....
how about this?

Dot: "Since everybody are blocked, I should used my own card to block myself!!!"

The rest of us: "WHAT!!!????"

LOL.LOL.LOL. =X

Looking forward to more sabotage tmr!! XDXD

P.s.: We should totally find boyfriend who will save us NO MATTER WHAT during sabotage. Haha. Like jus's boyfriend. XD

IEP posters

2010-01-14T05:15:00.000-08:00

IEP poster presentation!! XDXD

Overall...

Our advisor, Philip XD
Special thanks to him for treating us to dinner and helping us so much on so last minute...=X

Me!! XDXD The artist of all this, of course! haha. XD

Chia Ling with her rainbow shirt XD

DorothyXD Oops, cannot see the hat...=X

Jess, my first art piece! XD

Also...not forgetting...

Our visual and assessment aids...

XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXD

Best of all? We only get all this done on sun...the day before the presentation. =X

Well done~~ gd job~~ XDXD

LOL. =X

waht do I want??

2010-01-08T00:49:00.000-08:00

Have been thinking...
really hate myself when I am not able to make up my mind...

WHAT DO I WANT???

If you ask me " do you want to be a pre-school teacher?"

To be honest, no.

Do you want to be a supervisor?

My answer? No.

You know what? I just found my new interest.

Reasearch.

I concluded that I cannot stay in the same old environment doing the same old thing over and over again.
I need some changes at certain point and ability to think and try out, test out new ways.

But the problem is...what kind of research?

Is it something to do with children? adults? life of people? the environment?

my conclusion?

the life of people. I always like to see the different impact and influences that people have on one another. or even how people think and why they think in such a way.

so can anyone tell me what should I do then? How do I go about doing that??

Confused and lost...

Werid day...

2009-12-14T00:35:00.001-08:00

Huh...suppose to be doing my MEL activity for E-learning...but really cannot focus...so here I am to blog!!! Haha. =X

First of all, IT'S FINALLY HOLIDAYS !!!XD LOL. So happy to get to the life with no assignments. (dumping my bf already. Too stress. =X)

Anyway, went out with dot to attend a SUPER EARLY christmas party last sat. Was like super random...=X

On friday, when dot asked me then I just say "Ok, I will go. XD"

Then on sat,
Was waiting for dot at the mrt station when this auntie came up to me and said that my nails very nice. XD

Yes, I have managed to buy the blue nail polish~~~ XDXD and even put some stickers on top!!

So nice right????
Will kill whoever say it is not nice* =X

Then started to talk to the auntie like we are long lost good friends and even exchange phone numbers.

LOL.

Super random and I was like talking to a stranger...Oh no...
Children, if you see this post, please DO NOT FOLLOW my example.
CANNOT TALK TO STARNGERS!!! =X

Then went to val's christmas party.
The food there was really quite nice. XD
And were talking to this girl who is in fashion designing...so cool...
wa...and guess what?
She not only can sew very well but she cooked the food too!!
Wa...will make a good wife.haha. XD

Then started playing games.
Which everybody do not know...I actually saw who is the person taking number 7...
so when it was my turn I have like keep her name in my mind already. LOL. =X
So IMMEDIETELY just shout and WIN!!! Haha.
In other words, cheated. =X

Then played the game 'guess the lyrics'. I was like so proud of myself because I recorgnised three out of the five christmas songs but have like totally have no idea about the lyrics. Haha. =X Only know the melody. And the rest of the two...totally out of my generation.=X

After all the games, talk to another auntie (seriously, she don't look very old AT ALL)
Have so much in common with her~~ XD
LOL.
I guess I have the auntie's luck that day. Haha. =X
And managed to win the biggest prize of all!! XD

This!! XD

Left the party being known as the 'library girl'. Haha. =X

Then happily take the bus home, thinking it was like my lucky day...then..
wanted to switch bus...
waited for like 15 minutes...
before realising the last bus has already went away. =X

Race to catch the last train and switch to LRT after that.
Guess I am not such a transport idiot afterall. =X

Ok, finish being random, going to sleep!!! XD

random

2009-12-07T05:33:00.000-08:00

Sth that my sis draw~~ So funny~~ LOL. XD

Can't wait to get over this week!!!

I need motivation!!!

2009-11-26T05:47:00.000-08:00

I am back!
After a few crazy weeks...
And I bet a lot of people will be like 'CRAZY FOR YOU?! ARE YOU SURE?!"
When I finished all my assignments for this week since like last week? =X
When I am like sleeping by 10pm? =X

Well, people, I am still stress over my assignments next week~~~=X
And is like TOTALLY NO MOTIVATION to do it at all...
Oh no~~~

But having said that, I bet you I will be like chionging from tmr onwards. Haha. =X

People around me have been complaining that this sem is like diao, crazy, siao~~
Totally agree~~~
That's why it's always good to have friends around you that really cheer you up. XD
Really...have not been laughing so hard for so long.XD
Thanks, KC, Pearlyn, Gerry, Issac. haha XD

Miss Syenich...I wonder what she is doing in cambodia...
Looking at the photo album I make for her? XDXD
Miss the children in the childcare...
Just love them for remembering me~~
"Teacher Amy!!!" All started running to hug me.
TOTALLY melt my heart*XD
And can't wait for week 9~~~

Go, everyone! Let's all jia you for 2 more weeks!!!

Ok, 10pm, time to sleep~~~ =X

WE WON!!!! XD

2009-11-09T05:06:00.000-08:00

In the letter I received today...

"We are pleased to inform your team has won the second prize"

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

SCREAM AND JUMP IN JOY*

RAN TO MY PARENTS AND TELL THEM

MES MY SIS

MES MY TEAMATES

MSN, FACEBOOK

MES TO THANK MY FRIEND FOR GIVING ME THE COURAGE TO TAKE THE COMPETITION

So happy~~~~ XDXXDXDXDXDXDXDXD
but have like no idea what's the prizes...
LOL.
Only know have some money...=X

Waffle with ice cream, here I come~~~ XDXD

In the end I did nothing.
I treasure it too much...
I am scared that things might turn for the worst...
No more...I will not be able to take it anymore...
So just leave it.
It's ok. I will be ok.

Back to sch!XD

2009-11-05T18:49:00.000-08:00

Finally back to school!

Totally tired from doing assignment so I guess I can spend some time updating my blog. =X

A lot had happened.
Sending off, birthdays, pledge of silence, assignments, making decisions...

It was really tough but here are some things that keep me going. XD

Number 1:
Sherlene paying $41 dollar just to know that her hamster is fat. LOL.

Number 2:
Imagine the scene whereby chia ling knock onto the car's door while she was on her bike. LOL.
But her knee looks bad though...so painful...=(

Number 3:
Sherlene: "Fang Hou, do you love me?"
My answer EVERYDAY: "No~~~XD"
Sherlene emoing in one corner...=X

Number 4:
Dot and her usual 'logic'
Teacher: "I am seeing potential distinction group. =)"
Dot: "Oh...then can we don't do our assignment anymore???"
LOL.

Other than that...that's more too...XD

FRIENDS~~~~~ XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXD

It was really tough.
I hate myself for being so evil.
But I guess sometimes you will have to make decisions that hurt others...
and I TOTALLY HATE MYSELF FOR THAT.Really sorry...=(

I hate myself for being so indecisive...
So many considerations, so much options...
Can I just stop thinking?
I really want to rest...
But so much to be done and so little time...
What should I do?

Everything is ending so soon...
Last sem...haiz...
Just thinking about the words one of my friends said make it even worse...
And the ironic? It's suppose to make us feel better but in the end...Haiz...

Guess I just have to take my steps one by one
and solve all the problems that come my way.XD

Anyway, I always believe I am not alone. XDXDXD

Jia you, Amee!!!
Jia you, everyone!!!
It's a tough sem but we can do it!!! XDXDXD

Huh...I always though I was being too sensitive until the real impact hits me.
I guess something will have to be done..

Third last day of holidays

2009-10-17T03:16:00.000-07:00

It's finally holidays!!! =X

Finally finish my work~~~ XD

Went out with dot again~~~
Luckily we did not see the two person again. Phew...

And I went to watch my first horror movie with dot...
IT WAS HORRIBLE.
Oh my...I was like cannot looked at the screen most of the time...=X
Plus really feel painful when I see them killed...AH!!!
Stop recalling!!!

But it was through this experience then I realised how dot watch all those movies.
LOL
I always thought dot was like really brave...dare to watch all these shows..
But in the end, she was also like turning away.
Haha. =X
But she was braver than me because she dared to look at how the people die. =X
No more horror show for me!!
.....
....
Ok, maybe only after watching another one, Jennifer's body...=X

Went to do our nails too~~~ XD And I choose my favourite colour, blue~~~

My nails~~ Nice right???

At first, I did not really like it...

My sis said it looked like I am being poisoned. LOL. =X

...

but the longer I looked...I LOVE IT~~~

Ok, I am SO going to buy blue nail polish. LOL. =X

But get it out today because it was like peeling...

Haiz...

Nvm, I have a old blue nail polish with me~~~

Can always paint it back~~~XD

Can't wait to go back sch~~~ XD

Want to make your life more interesting? Do this! XD

2009-10-11T06:12:00.000-07:00

When you are working, it is always nice to have outings.
Why?
Because at least you have sth to look forward to when you end work~~

Manage to catch up with my sec sch friends so I guess my holidays was not wasted at all.=)

Oh...also went out with dot these few days.
Seriously, dot, you must be thinking I am not going to post this up right? Haha.
Sorry, but I have not post it immediately because I am feeling a bit unwell today so...
but now, I recover ~~~=X

Here's what happened...

Dot and me were going to take a bus back when two ladies approached us.
One targeting dot, the other one at me.

Girl A: "Wait you look very familiar...what school are you from?"
Amy: Look at her...Don't think she looked familiar at all. Decided to walk away.

Amy saw that dot was also stopped by another girl...Have no choice but to stop too.
They wanted us to help them complete a survey...
Amy: Huh...ok, fine then. Anyway, it's a short one. =X

Girl A: "Oh...so you two are sisters?"
Dot: "Yes, We are. I am the jie jie, she is my mei mei."
Amy: HUH!???? Look at dot in shock, giving the 'since when are we sisters' kind of look.

Girl B: "Oh...can see, you have so many accessories on you.Then what course are you studying?"
Dot:" Both of us in Early childhood.I am in year 3."
Amy: Wondering what was happening...why dot said we are sisters?!!!! Decided to just stay quiet then. =X

Girl A: " Oh...then how old are you?" (asking me...)
Amy: "19 years old."(Seriously, I am BAD at lying, dot....)
Both of them looked at us weridly, giving the 'huh? same age?' look.

Girl B: "Oh...then you two are twins?"
Dot: "No, we are not."
Amy: Can't you use your eyes to see...we don't alike at all...diao...

Girl A:" How can that be? They don't look alike..."
Girl B: "But both of them are 19 years old..."
Oops, trouble...
Luckily, dot was fast.
Dot:" No, she in year 2, I in year 3..."
Amy: Just cannot keep her mouth shut in time..." I am??!!!"

Girl B looked at me, smile slightly and gave me that 'this girl don't even know her age' look.
Amy: Hello~~ I am really 19!!!! Nvm, ignore then.

Girl A: "Then what do your parents work as?"
Dot: "Oh...our father is a taxi driver and my mother works in clinic."
Amy: LOL. She totally combine my mum and her dad. =X

Girl A: "Oh, then you have a joint account with your parents?"
Dot: "Yes. With my dad."
Girl B: "You?"
Amy: "yes, with my mum."
Well...that's partly true. Used to have...=X

Girl B: "Then are your parents very strict with how you spend your money?"
Dot: "yes."
Amy shake her head at the same time.
LOL.
Both girls stared at us.
Save by dot again.
Dot: "Oh...my parents trust my mei mei more."
LOL.

At this moment, I was like writing my name on the paper when I realised...wait...we have different surname!!!
Nvm, just put 'amy' then.=X
Luckily because dot just wrote her real name with her surname.=X

Then next...date of birth...
Amy whispered to dot: "What's my date of birth?"
Dot: "Just write 91" (softly)
Amy then wrote 31 january 91.
Gosh, I hate lying...

It was only after the whole incident then I was like asking dot about what happened...
She actually wanted to get rid of them so she told her girl we were rushing to meet parents.
then when the girl asked her are we sisters, she just said "yes."
LOL.

Seriously, dot, that's really...
The worst thing is that I went on with it...=X What's wrong with me!?
LOL.

Here's another aftermath...
Dot: "Wait...how is it possible for our 'mother' to give birth to you after she gave birth to me like exactly one month before?!"
Amy: " Huh? That's not possible?" (don't even know.=X)
Dot: "No!!! Oh my....huh...nvm, if we see them again then I said we are actually step sisters."
Amy: Speechless....

LOL.

Monday blues

2009-09-28T02:13:00.000-07:00

It's monday...
Was getting really pissed off just now during work....
So much to be done but yet everything moved so slowly...

Conclusion?
If you want to work with me, you better be FAST and DO A GOOD JOB. If not...=X
And that's an ideal workaholic for you. =X

Enjoying my 'holidays'! XD

2009-09-25T02:37:00.000-07:00

Went out with Jo, Dot and Joel yesterday to iluma.
The air con is like SUPER COLD.
What's wrong with the people there? =X

Dot and Jo showed me their nails...
Wa...so nice~~~
But I cannot get my nails done now...
My work will spolit everything within a day...
Haiz..
Nvm, we can go to get it done again right, Dot and Jo?? XD
And, Jo, just stop complaining the design is not symmetrical...people will not notice AT ALL unless you place your nails next to one another...like what you did yesterday (almost half the time. =X)

Went to this jap resturant to eat.
It was quite interesting. Why?
We have to use this senser thing to order.
It looked like a pen and all you have to do is to touch it on the menu and enter the quantity and confirm your order. But it was quite noisy though. Just keep on repeating what we ordering and Jo was like trying VERY HARD to keep the volume down. LOL. =X

Finally, we went to watch the ugly truth.
It was quite funny especially this part...
"I just said that I am in love with a psycho and all you heard is psycho? "
LOL. XD

Going to take my nap now~~=X

Meeting kalyn tmr!!! XD

My Hari Raya XD

2009-09-21T03:34:00.000-07:00

Went to support Melise yesterday for her dance comp.
Wa...REALLY NICE~~~XD
Gd job, Melise~~~ XD
My sis will be like so jealous of all the locking performances. =X

Was finally having dinner at 10 plus.
Everybody were like super hungry...

How hungry? Just take a look at this...=X

Waitress: "Here's your chicken teriyaki ramen."
Mau took it and happily started eating.
Amy was thinking in her heart: "Oh...mau also order chicken ramen. Nvm, let her eat first."

Waitress came again, "Here's your chicken teriyaki set meal." and place in front of me.
Amy looked shocked.
Gerry: "Did you order that?"
Amy: "No..."
Gerry: ? Turn to mau. "Wait...is this yours?"
Mau: !!!!!?????? AH! YES!!!
Amy: -_-
Mau: "Sorry, sorry!!!"
The rest: "Wa...mau!!!"

That's how hungry we were.
Cannot even think logically.
LOL.
=X

With a flash of light, she changes...

2009-09-14T03:08:00.000-07:00

Seriously, this blogger is driving me crazy...
Hate it when I cannot blog any pictures...
On the other hand,
Too lazy to blog too~~~ Wahahaha~~~ =X
Guess my laziness won.

Trying to spam all my weekends with outings. LOL.
Time to catch up with my friends~~ XD

Just realise recently that I am really a HUGE MYSTERY reader.XD
Really enjoy reading mysteries~~~
The weridest thing is that I do not really mind all the grotesque details...
If only I can do that when I am watching those horrible shows...
Although occasionally,I prefer sweet romance, comedy and fantasy...XD

Off to read my books~~
Just SIMPLY LOVE READING BOOKS~~~ XD

With a flash of light, she changes.
It might only last for a while, but it does not matter to her anymore.
She just know she is not the same person that she used to be.
It might be hard but being contented is all that she needs.
No point thinking at all.
Only then, will everything stop.
Even if it is just a tiny little bit, she is growing up...

Ugly truth about working life

2009-08-29T19:28:00.000-07:00

Gossiping...
Backstabbing...
Bullying temp staff...
Bleeding fingers...
Complaining...

Seriously, I am lucky that I will only be in this environment for a while...
If not, I will go crazy...=X

And Mum, U ROCK!!! XD
So don't care about what others say at all.

There was a fire yesterday at my workplace...
Wa...can really like smell the smoke...
Horrible...
Luckily it was not too bad yet..
Managed to earn around 40 minutes slacking time...=X
Seriously, during emergency, you do not even rem yr valuables...
So I am not a greedy person right? =X

A typical day at work...

2009-08-25T02:38:00.000-07:00

Today's experience...

Backache = prove of getting old....=x

Tired = Should sleep MORE!

A non-stopping mountain of queue number = MORE WORK! LESS REST!!!

Being sandwiched by the shelves = More pain...

The person who sandwiched the shelves on you and did NOT APOLOGIZE.
In fact, after I am like shouting away for her to stop
And the auntie outside can hear me LOUD AND CLEAR enough to stop her,
She still tried to crash me.
= Deaf and rude person. Hopeless case...

Phobia of cramped places= job hazard

Hence, if anything is to happen to me, you will know what happened. =X

Looking forward to watch UP this week~~~ XD NACHO~~~ XD

Fun~~~ XD

2009-08-24T02:50:00.000-07:00

Have a lot of fun yesterday~~~
Really enjoy going out with friends~~~

And...
Cannot post up pictures AGAIN...
So Pearlyn, anything just go facebook.XD
Mau managed to capture EVERY MOMENT OF WHAT HAPPEN YESTERDAY. LOL. =X
Oh...highly recommeded the video~~~ XD
Mummy, don't die watching it. =X Relax~~ BREATHE~~ =X

To myself...
Do not complain.
Being busy is good.
Jia you! XD

Just a crazy idea...maybe I should start packing all my weekends with OUTINGS~~~ XD

Feel like going overseas...
Feel like resting..
Feel lost...

Amee Sotong is missing the hugs from the children.

second day of work

2009-08-18T02:45:00.000-07:00

Yesterday...

My dad: "You should exercise your hand like that...If not tmr will have muscle ache..."
Me: "Really? I don't feel it at all." (Do not believe it...)

Today...

My hand is really hurting...=X (Applying med now...)
But I don't think it will help since I have been using that same hand today...
Can't imagine what will happen tmr...=X

Today was my second day of work.
It was much more better.
Guess I just need some time to adapt.
However, still hate to have lunch alone...
Remind me of bad memories...
Haiz...
Guess this will be how things go for another one month plus...
Or anybody want to travel down and join me for lunch everyday? =X

And I think I might develop a new phobia of cramp places...
Try sandwiching between two big movable shelves...
And feel the shelves closing on you soon...=X

P.s.: Did not really managed to cunt the number of files I found today...considering the speed, I think it is more. Hopefully...=X

Back to work!

2009-08-17T03:16:00.000-07:00

Oh my...this blogger seriously diao...
Can't post pictures at all...sob,sob*
So I am back with another post with only words.=X

Today was my first day of work in the polyclinic.
My job scope? To find the files of the patients.
Sound like an easy job?
Well, compared to cashing and teaching, it is indeed much more easier as I am now facing only files, not people. =X

But don't be too happy yet.

Trying knowing almost like nothing about everything...
Seriously, through this whole day, I was like "Huh?" all the way.=X
Have to totally rely on myself to ask and hopefully get things right...
Haiz...
Hopefully, I will get the hang of it soon. Sometimes, just hate to adapt to changes.=X
Maybe I can start counting how many files I sort tmr and try to break the record each day. LOL. XD

Bored~~~

2009-08-14T06:57:00.000-07:00

IT IS SUPPOSED TO BE HOLIDAYS BUT I AM BORED~~~ =X
Seriously, when is blogger recovering? I want to post up pictures~~~
Haiz...

So boring with just words...
Just finish watching America got talent for the third time. Haha.
Never failed to touch me...some scenes..
My sis was like damn angry with the people who 'boo'...
I agree with her.
Totally sympathize that judge man...
He was not that bad...average but what's with that big reaction anyway?
Haiz...sometimes, I just don't understand them at all...

Where is the love~~~

Anyway, will be working from monday onwards so bye bye to my bored holidays~~ XD
Can we just all meet up one day? LOL.
Feel like meeting up with joilette, Yi chun, kalyn, huiling, dot, sherlene, jus, evie, chia ling, wei han, jo, syaz, mau, pearlyn, gerry, aik nen, KC, melise, pakwing...and the list goes on. XD

OUTINGS~~~~ XD

I know where to go next~~ We can go take flyer~~or the tall natural bridge walk or sth..or go some swamp? LOL.=X
Wait...just realise I am scared of height...oops...=X
Nvm, let's still go there~~~ XD

Going off to listen to vitas's dedication~~ JUST LOVE IT!!! Haha. XD

Will be back with more boring post with words till blogger recovers...=X

Slacking...Time for youtube~~ XD

2009-08-09T21:28:00.000-07:00

Take a look at all these videos~~ XD

This is quite cool but retarded. LOL.

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Pity the harry potter person. Must say so fast. LOL. =X

Not enough?
Get amazed by this...LOVE THIS!!! XD

With 'class'~~~

COOL RIGHT?!!! XD

Compared with this...
Cute version. XD

That's all for now. Something wrong with blogger...cannot post up pictures..Haiz..

I am BACK!!!

2009-08-08T22:59:00.000-07:00

I am FINALLY BCAK!!!
After months of attachment, it's finally HOLIDAYS!!! XD
But something wrong with the blogger so will not be able to post up any pictures...=(
Nvm, another time then. If I rem...=X
But seriously, one more week and I will be working till end of holidays..
Oh no...where's my holidays?
Haiz...
Nvm, I still hav one and a half day during weekend. =)
AND at least I get to earn some money XD
So let's go oversea when I grad, ok? Haha. XD

Will be back with more post soon~~ I hope...=X

Contented Amee Sotong XD

P.s.: Love the game yesterday although I die like in 3 seconds...LOL. =X Tell me if you all are going to play, ok? XD

Holidays! XD

2009-06-16T06:37:00.000-07:00

Tired from make-up attachment today...
But it's HOLIDAYS!!! XD
Time to...

WORK HARD!!!
LOL. I bet you thought I want to say time to play hard...=X
Cannot...too much to be done...
Jia you! =)

Looking forward to seeing my friends again...XD

Aik Nen, jia you too~~ XD

2009-06-03T07:01:00.000-07:00

Sweet evANGELine

No 1 HanKyung Fan

Amy, Craziest Timekeeper

Syaz, Artist Wannabe

GOT IN FOR WRITE AWAY!!!

YEA!!! XD

another day gone...

2009-04-29T05:18:00.000-07:00

Did you notice something?

Yes, I have totally removed my songs...
So weird to only play a few minutes of your songs....

After doing that, I realise...
maybe having the blog to be silence might not be so bad after all.
At least your ears is finally getting a rest. =)

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.
.
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They say to believe...
I did.
But now, I don't know...
How do you believe?

In the end, in reality, there is no happily ever after.
If that is the case, can I just escape to the fairy tale world?

I AM BACK!!! XD

2009-04-28T05:46:00.000-07:00

Evie was asking me yesterday...did you update your blog?

Oops, totally forget that my blog exists. LOL. =X

Too much facebook liao.Haha. =X

It's finally back to school~~
And how is it?
Somehow...
it does not feel like I am back to school...
Of course!
With only like 2 hours lesson each day...
Haiz...
And everybody gyming now...
Only I am not going...=X
Do not think I can use much of the gym equipments anyway...
But I don't mind playing some sports...XD Anybody?

random again

2009-04-13T03:57:00.000-07:00

Adjusting to my work environment...
So far so good...
Missing one red pen...
Missing one blue pen...
Trying to enjoy my holidays...
Draining out of energy due to work...
Last touching up on storybook...
All our hard work finally done. XD
Looking forward to wed for outing! XD

Jia you, Amee Sotong!
4 more days of work...

P.s.: Can understand why they say they enjoy their student's life the most out of their lifetime...

P.s.s.: Don't understand how people get trapped in the handicap lift at atrium...=X

P.s.s.s.: Do I look fat? A person pass me a paper with regards to weight loss...Diao...seriously I doubt he can differ between fat and skinny. =X

better?

2009-04-09T03:28:00.000-07:00

Are things turning for better?
I hope so...

Praying hard that my luck don't run out....

Holidays had 'ended' for me....

2009-04-07T06:16:00.000-07:00

Stress...
Worried...
Tired...
Upset...

Will tmr be better?

Praying hard...

crazy week

2009-03-30T23:36:00.000-07:00

One week of madness...
I can't even stay still at home nowadays...=X
Will be even busy these few weeks...
I think by the time I get to rest...
it is already end of holidays...=X

One more outing...
Writing away...
Going to work...
Mentoring HOC...
It will soon be end of holidays!

P.s.: Remind me NEVER go to those kind of singer's autograph session...
7 hours of waiting..
No autograph...
Legs aching like siao..
Pity the cleaners who have to clean up the place...
Scary fans...

After like 5 hours of waiting...I finally got to the near end with my cousin's friend...
but decided to go out in the end. LOL. =X

My cousin managed to get handshakes from them in the end...

You cannot even breathe properly there..

People just keep on pushing...

Stepping your feet...

All kinds of weird smell around you...

I seriously have NO IDEA why they can do that...=X

Kusu island

2009-03-30T23:25:00.000-07:00

Have been really busy these few weeks...
Can't even rem what I had done. LOL. =X
Let's see...Kusu island...
Here's what we do...

Just LOVE the ferry ride!! XD

My holidays! XD

2009-03-16T06:30:00.000-07:00

I am BACK WITH A LOT OF PHOTOS!! XD

Wahahaha~~ XD

Here's what I had been doing for my holidays... XD

KE concert 2009

Taking retarded photos with my sister....=X

Like this...XD

My sis is SO going to KILL me...Haha. =X

Sending Mummy off...

2B02 chalet! XD

And this is what I had been doing in chalet...=X

I am halfway through my holidays...

Feelings?

I felt quite satisfied.

Manage to get a lot of things done...like getting a job, playing hard...=X

And still in the process of getting my other things done...

Write away, Mentoring HOC, outings, scrapbooking...

Clarify my doubts and troubles, facing them, accepting them...

I think I have managed to achieve a lot so far...and there is still more to come...XD

Amy, good job in achieving your goals so far! XD Pat my head* XD

Hope I have better luck in achieving the rest...=X

Amee Sotong is regaining what she has lost...

Amee Sotong is glad that she is stronger than she thought...

Amee Sotong is thankful for people who show her care and concern...

Amee Sotong is relieved that her burdens are down...

Amee Sotong is looking forward to get a lot more things DONE!

In the end, the worst enemy is none other than yourself...

Amy feels that she has grown up...

maybe just a little...

but that's enough.XD

Word of advise to others:

Dare to dream

Dare to achieve

Stay strong

And you will be just fine.

Interesting things i see today...

2009-03-12T03:38:00.000-07:00

Being random...
It was like pouring this afternoon and get to see the people riding motor all park at one side to wear their raincoat...
Thought that the plants and flowers look nice after rain when the sun shine on them...sparking...
Your biggest enemy is indeed yourself...

Will be back with next post with photos...

Just realise I have not been posting photos...=X